I'm so sad
Well I took Shaun back to the airport this afternoon. It was so hard to say goodbye again, my heart ached as I cried in his arms. He kept saying "You have to stay strong, I'll be back again" but I still couldn't stop the tears. His visit was so much fun and I hated knowing it had to come to an end. And it will be this way for more years to come until after we're married and he's granted access to live here. Each time is harder than the last. As we departed and started to walk away, I looked down at the ground trying to hide my tears from those around me, and I sensed his presence and turned around and he was chasing after me with tears in his eyes. He gave me a last kiss and hug goodbye and told me he loved me and to take care and then we finally departed. I didn't expect the goodbye to be so difficult. But we both knew the risks we were taking when we started dating. We both knew it wasn't going to be easy.
I've been playing WoW since I came home, trying to keep my mind off of everything, but even in a fantasy world I am alone at the moment. I can't even concentrate. Everything around me reminds me of him. No matter where I am in the house, or where I look, I am reminded that he is now gone. I loved these past 2 weeks and the fun we had. I loved being a "normal" couple. And I already feel so lost without him here by my side.
I've been playing WoW since I came home, trying to keep my mind off of everything, but even in a fantasy world I am alone at the moment. I can't even concentrate. Everything around me reminds me of him. No matter where I am in the house, or where I look, I am reminded that he is now gone. I loved these past 2 weeks and the fun we had. I loved being a "normal" couple. And I already feel so lost without him here by my side.