Current Events
I've been invited to my friend Chris's dinner party tomorrow night. I'm excited about it because I'll get to dress up pretty. I already have my clothes and jewelry picked out. I wish I could take pix of myself all dressed up but I don't have a digital cam, only a webcam. Blah.
I went to see my psychiatrist the other day. I handed her a list of symptoms and she looked at me and said "These are all symptoms of your depression, and I CAN'T help you. You need to go out and do things, and not stay home and only go out to go to school, and you need to set goals." I left her office and started crying. Little does she know I felt suicidal the nights before and that morning. I wouldn't dare tell her because I'm scared of being locked up again. I felt so helpless and alone. So I went home and called up a counseling center at a local college. The lady on the phone sounded so warm and friendly, unlike my cold, uncaring psych. It really gave me a sense of hope. I have an appointment set for next month. I'm really looking forward to going.
I started a new semester last week. I only have 2 classes because Financial Aid wouldn't cover a 3rd class this semester. I found out I got on the President's List again. This is the second time in a row this has happened. So far at this college I've gotten all As. It made me feel really good to hear about my accomplishment. I'm hoping to graduate with High Honors next year.
I really Miss Shaun. We spent most of the day arguing, which was really depressing. I hate when we argue. And it's all because I'm trying to make an effort to be more social tomorrow night. He's jealous and hates Chris with a passion even though Chris has NEVER made advances on me. We're just friends, nothing more.
I went to see my psychiatrist the other day. I handed her a list of symptoms and she looked at me and said "These are all symptoms of your depression, and I CAN'T help you. You need to go out and do things, and not stay home and only go out to go to school, and you need to set goals." I left her office and started crying. Little does she know I felt suicidal the nights before and that morning. I wouldn't dare tell her because I'm scared of being locked up again. I felt so helpless and alone. So I went home and called up a counseling center at a local college. The lady on the phone sounded so warm and friendly, unlike my cold, uncaring psych. It really gave me a sense of hope. I have an appointment set for next month. I'm really looking forward to going.
I started a new semester last week. I only have 2 classes because Financial Aid wouldn't cover a 3rd class this semester. I found out I got on the President's List again. This is the second time in a row this has happened. So far at this college I've gotten all As. It made me feel really good to hear about my accomplishment. I'm hoping to graduate with High Honors next year.
I really Miss Shaun. We spent most of the day arguing, which was really depressing. I hate when we argue. And it's all because I'm trying to make an effort to be more social tomorrow night. He's jealous and hates Chris with a passion even though Chris has NEVER made advances on me. We're just friends, nothing more.