I should be sleeping...
you know that point... when you've been awake so long that world is kinda sway-ie. almost like being drunk... yeah... I need to sleep.... I think I've just got too much shit going on though.
March is turning into another one of those drama months. Every time I turn around there is a new problem/tragedy/fuck up... All those times that we stood back and said 'that's gonna be an epic fail' are coming back and blowing up just as predicted. So often we called it and normally I'd be wanting to stand back and say 'I told you so' on a few of these cases but the Epic-ness of these Failures makes me feel bad that I called it. I've had my own epic failure to add to the list... Nothing as tragic or life shattering as other people but I'm beginning to think I'm doomed to fail at relationships. I know I have some trust issues but cold bitch is a little excessive just because I wouldn't fuck him on the first date. I'm allowed to have morals even if I have thrown them out the window once or twice.
One the up side, I made it into IRT for Acen which means that i can actually afford to go though it is looking like it's just going to be me. I'm very excited about the whole experience and extreemly amused by my callsign. Soul was taken so they dubbed me Scythe. It looks like I will be taking a train to Chicago and back simply because I don't want to drive... My car is having some issues, and after the pre-christmas disaster on the way back to saginaw... let's just say I don't want to repeat that. I've been a bit skittish about long drives since then...
On another not so nice note, I hate being back in Saginaw. I hate it so much I don't even know how to describe it. I don't even know what's wrong with me. I wasn't happy here before, I wasn't happy in kalamazoo, and I'm not happy here now... For once, I'd like to know what would make me happy and maybe have a shot at it cause I really don't know right now.
Oh... by the way... Whispers in the Rain should be up and running in the next couple of days.
March is turning into another one of those drama months. Every time I turn around there is a new problem/tragedy/fuck up... All those times that we stood back and said 'that's gonna be an epic fail' are coming back and blowing up just as predicted. So often we called it and normally I'd be wanting to stand back and say 'I told you so' on a few of these cases but the Epic-ness of these Failures makes me feel bad that I called it. I've had my own epic failure to add to the list... Nothing as tragic or life shattering as other people but I'm beginning to think I'm doomed to fail at relationships. I know I have some trust issues but cold bitch is a little excessive just because I wouldn't fuck him on the first date. I'm allowed to have morals even if I have thrown them out the window once or twice.
One the up side, I made it into IRT for Acen which means that i can actually afford to go though it is looking like it's just going to be me. I'm very excited about the whole experience and extreemly amused by my callsign. Soul was taken so they dubbed me Scythe. It looks like I will be taking a train to Chicago and back simply because I don't want to drive... My car is having some issues, and after the pre-christmas disaster on the way back to saginaw... let's just say I don't want to repeat that. I've been a bit skittish about long drives since then...
On another not so nice note, I hate being back in Saginaw. I hate it so much I don't even know how to describe it. I don't even know what's wrong with me. I wasn't happy here before, I wasn't happy in kalamazoo, and I'm not happy here now... For once, I'd like to know what would make me happy and maybe have a shot at it cause I really don't know right now.
Oh... by the way... Whispers in the Rain should be up and running in the next couple of days.