Oh, dear heart. Reading this, it made me sad to see you this way. You know exactly who you are and where you want to be. The past is the past, what lies before you is the infinite possiblity of who you can become--who you already are.
I can empathise with a lot of what you say. Sorry you've been through all that you have - and that you're still having problems from the past. I particularly empathise with the anxiety and panic attacks - though I probably don't cope with it much better now than I used to in the past.
society itself has an anxiety problem. we're all freaking the fuck out at once.
me included, of course. anxiety can be crippling. artisitically and creativally, socially, productively... eventually you come to the conclusion that there really are only two methods to deal with it: medication, which I tried for some time, or the other option, which though harder I think is beter suited for everyone in the end: you just deal with it. you learn to work with it and accept it. I'm sure there are some strong character building points in it too, as you force yourself to grow stronger despite the unshakable notion of criplling tension.
"I want to be that concrete rose, defeating the odds. Becoming something despite the environment. Becoming something despite itself."
I believe that being yourself and not caring about who accepts you or who doesn't is the best way to go. Everyone is beautiful inside. You, me, the next person I pass on the street, so why hide it?
I don't know if that made sense or if was even on topic. It was just my thoughts pouring out onto this tiny square box.
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Mmm... but we roses are tough. Very tough.
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society itself has an anxiety problem. we're all freaking the fuck out at once.
me included, of course. anxiety can be crippling. artisitically and creativally, socially, productively... eventually you come to the conclusion that there really are only two methods to deal with it: medication, which I tried for some time, or the other option, which though harder I think is beter suited for everyone in the end: you just deal with it. you learn to work with it and accept it. I'm sure there are some strong character building points in it too, as you force yourself to grow stronger despite the unshakable notion of criplling tension.
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"I want to be that concrete rose, defeating the odds. Becoming something despite the environment. Becoming something despite itself."
I believe that being yourself and not caring about who accepts you or who doesn't is the best way to go. Everyone is beautiful inside. You, me, the next person I pass on the street, so why hide it?
I don't know if that made sense or if was even on topic. It was just my thoughts pouring out onto this tiny square box.
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