What is the definition of the word forlorn?
Well dictionary.com says desolate or dreary; unhappy or miserable, as in feeling, condition, or appearance.
I'd agree. Oh dear, I've never felt such a loss of direction in my life as of right now. I feel the pain of breakup, (I've felt that before), the pain of loss and grieving, and the feeling that all my aspirations are hopeless.
I can't seem to help anyone else because I feel so miserable myself. I'm denying myself to get through tough situations, and in the meantime I'm losing myself. My ex, Cory is going through a really rough time, but I can't be there to comfort him because I have to let both him and I have time to heal. I know deep in my heart that we would make each other as miserable as we did just a few months ago but I can't help but miss the amazing companionship he provided.
~There are certain people you just keep coming back to
She is right in front of you
You begin to wonder could you find a better one
Compared to her now she's in question
And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same
Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there
Looking for the right one you line up the world to find
Where no questions cross your mind
But she won't keep on waiting for you without a doubt
Much longer for you to sort it out
And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same
Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there
Maybe you want it maybe you need it,
Maybe it's all you're running from,
Perfection will not come
And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes
We'd never know what's wrong without the pain
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same
Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you've started to compare to someone not there
Maybe you want it maybe you need it
Maybe it's all you're running from
Perfection will not come
Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you had her maybe you lost her to another
To another~
I think it was a mistake to get involved with someone else again so quickly.
I did it for initially healthy reasons, I admired them, I knew that if I was single I would fall back into the trap of going back to my ex, but I still miss him. There's nothing harder than looking in their eyes, knowing how much they hurt. And to see the anger they hold against you for letting them go. My conscience is murdering me right now, I wake up in the middle of the night feeling his pain, not even beginning to consider my own. Why do I let others feelings affect me so much?! It's like I enter a relationship, not as a person, but as a mother. And I tend to they're every worry and ailment. To see one of my children in pain, it's like a stab through the heart. I decided a week ago, to cease all contact with him to try to stop this constant pain I feel for causing them sadness, but it's seeming to make it worse. I only want to see him smile again.
I know I should be worrying about my own pain, my own battered soul, but I don't even care, it's not my priority. And I don't want it to be. I've recently realized I hate school. Why? Because it's where I see the constant use of selfishness everyday. Students use it to get ahead in school work, to advance in career paths, and other paths. I just can't stand it. Selfishness makes me miserable. I would gladly live for someone else, to dedicate my life to another, because I find the concept of selfishness so sacrilegious.
After that, what the Hell am I suppose to do with my life! Help other people, I plan to, but the path to get there would require me to break all my previous stated morals.
I'd agree. Oh dear, I've never felt such a loss of direction in my life as of right now. I feel the pain of breakup, (I've felt that before), the pain of loss and grieving, and the feeling that all my aspirations are hopeless.
I can't seem to help anyone else because I feel so miserable myself. I'm denying myself to get through tough situations, and in the meantime I'm losing myself. My ex, Cory is going through a really rough time, but I can't be there to comfort him because I have to let both him and I have time to heal. I know deep in my heart that we would make each other as miserable as we did just a few months ago but I can't help but miss the amazing companionship he provided.
~There are certain people you just keep coming back to
She is right in front of you
You begin to wonder could you find a better one
Compared to her now she's in question
And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same
Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there
Looking for the right one you line up the world to find
Where no questions cross your mind
But she won't keep on waiting for you without a doubt
Much longer for you to sort it out
And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same
Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there
Maybe you want it maybe you need it,
Maybe it's all you're running from,
Perfection will not come
And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes
We'd never know what's wrong without the pain
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same
Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you've started to compare to someone not there
Maybe you want it maybe you need it
Maybe it's all you're running from
Perfection will not come
Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you had her maybe you lost her to another
To another~
I think it was a mistake to get involved with someone else again so quickly.
I did it for initially healthy reasons, I admired them, I knew that if I was single I would fall back into the trap of going back to my ex, but I still miss him. There's nothing harder than looking in their eyes, knowing how much they hurt. And to see the anger they hold against you for letting them go. My conscience is murdering me right now, I wake up in the middle of the night feeling his pain, not even beginning to consider my own. Why do I let others feelings affect me so much?! It's like I enter a relationship, not as a person, but as a mother. And I tend to they're every worry and ailment. To see one of my children in pain, it's like a stab through the heart. I decided a week ago, to cease all contact with him to try to stop this constant pain I feel for causing them sadness, but it's seeming to make it worse. I only want to see him smile again.
I know I should be worrying about my own pain, my own battered soul, but I don't even care, it's not my priority. And I don't want it to be. I've recently realized I hate school. Why? Because it's where I see the constant use of selfishness everyday. Students use it to get ahead in school work, to advance in career paths, and other paths. I just can't stand it. Selfishness makes me miserable. I would gladly live for someone else, to dedicate my life to another, because I find the concept of selfishness so sacrilegious.
After that, what the Hell am I suppose to do with my life! Help other people, I plan to, but the path to get there would require me to break all my previous stated morals.