life is like a box of chocolates....
well, my box of chocolates seem to be all filled with tart, dry, non-fun fillings.
everything has been really confusing.
i have decisions to make.
personal ones.
what to decide is my problem.
should i say something?
should i keep it all in?
the problem lies with this:
i do not have telepathy.
i never know what people are thinking.
if i did, it would be so much better.
The things i want to say and do...
well, i would feel like an ass if i didnt
know it was okay to say them.
just one big annoying dumb asshole.
hah! thats why i am asking people to speak the hell up.
why is it that everyone in my life...
(including myself, i wont be a hypocrite)
has such a horrible communication problem?
just my luck. people who wont say a thing, plus me.
that equals getting nowhere. for a long time at least.
i used to be a really outgoing person.
i mean, i am friendly. i always will be.
i can talk to people. but not about me.
that is where it gets hard for me.
i dont like to talk about me and what im thinking.
i really like to listen. soak it all up.
hell, i dont even like thinking about me.
i should try to.
there are people in your life that never will be completely out of the picture. family for instance.
then there are people that you know your whole life, that kind of waver in and out as the years go by.
and there are the ones that leave a huge impression on you, but they go off and you never hear of or see them ever again. it doesnt matter if you hated them or loved them. they are still on your mind.
i may be a hurt person, ...in a few different ways... but i am not bitter for too long about anything. i just want to step into a new fresh puddle and wash all of the old dirt away. i wish others would do the same.
i like starting it all over.
everything has been really confusing.
i have decisions to make.
personal ones.
what to decide is my problem.
should i say something?
should i keep it all in?
the problem lies with this:
i do not have telepathy.
i never know what people are thinking.
if i did, it would be so much better.
The things i want to say and do...
well, i would feel like an ass if i didnt
know it was okay to say them.
just one big annoying dumb asshole.
hah! thats why i am asking people to speak the hell up.
why is it that everyone in my life...
(including myself, i wont be a hypocrite)
has such a horrible communication problem?
just my luck. people who wont say a thing, plus me.
that equals getting nowhere. for a long time at least.
i used to be a really outgoing person.
i mean, i am friendly. i always will be.
i can talk to people. but not about me.
that is where it gets hard for me.
i dont like to talk about me and what im thinking.
i really like to listen. soak it all up.
hell, i dont even like thinking about me.
i should try to.
there are people in your life that never will be completely out of the picture. family for instance.
then there are people that you know your whole life, that kind of waver in and out as the years go by.
and there are the ones that leave a huge impression on you, but they go off and you never hear of or see them ever again. it doesnt matter if you hated them or loved them. they are still on your mind.
i may be a hurt person, ...in a few different ways... but i am not bitter for too long about anything. i just want to step into a new fresh puddle and wash all of the old dirt away. i wish others would do the same.
i like starting it all over.