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His grandfather is dying and I'm a bad girlfriend. I can't fix it and I don't know what to say. its out of my hands and theres nothing for me to even attempt to grasp. He's on his own. and i don't know what to say. I didn't get to see him today, so we've been texting. and I don't know what to say.
about 3 year and 2 months ago I was in his exact same position. I was losing one of the closest people to me. The difference is he got to say goodbye, I didn't.
Goodbye. I don't know what to tell him. I can't tell him everything will be okay, more than likely it won't. I can't say I'm sorry, everyone says that and only half of them mean it. All I can say is I love you and I'm here.
I LOVE YOU and I'm here. Its so painful for him and I can feel it too. I feel wierd, I've never met his grandfather. But he's so hurt by his loss, that I feel it to. He's devastated. He's lost hope. I'm suppose to be his hope. But I don't know what to say.
When I was in his position, people would tell me sorry. I'd change the subject and try never to think about it.
he wants comfort. but i don't know how to give it. Usually I can't. But right now, I don't. know. what. to. say.
When they take him off the machine and he passes, my boy will cry and I'll feel every tear that falls. because we're that close, and then I'll know what to say. I'll tell him how strong he is and how amazing of a person he is. How much he means to me and I'm sure his grandpa felt the same. How I love him with everything I have, and so does his grandfather. How I'm sorry he had to go, but atleast he's not suffering and you know he loves you.
YOU KNOW IT.
"Even though only twenty percent of my grandfather's heart is working, he still told me he loved me with all of it"
He's devastated. I don't know what to say. and I just wish I had the power to make it better and know what to say.
I played drums at church tonight and i get to play them sunday morning for the first time. I should be excited, but I'm not. While I was there playing them drums and getting my performance perfected, one of the people I care about most was somewhere else. crying. dying inside. loosing everything he knows.
and i was drumming.
and i still don't know what to say. I feel like a horrible girlfriend. I want his pain to go away. I want him to smile like he used to.
I want him watching me drum without and once of pain, just smiles and happiness.
But he can't. and i don't know what to say to him to make it better. I can't.
about 3 year and 2 months ago I was in his exact same position. I was losing one of the closest people to me. The difference is he got to say goodbye, I didn't.
Goodbye. I don't know what to tell him. I can't tell him everything will be okay, more than likely it won't. I can't say I'm sorry, everyone says that and only half of them mean it. All I can say is I love you and I'm here.
I LOVE YOU and I'm here. Its so painful for him and I can feel it too. I feel wierd, I've never met his grandfather. But he's so hurt by his loss, that I feel it to. He's devastated. He's lost hope. I'm suppose to be his hope. But I don't know what to say.
When I was in his position, people would tell me sorry. I'd change the subject and try never to think about it.
he wants comfort. but i don't know how to give it. Usually I can't. But right now, I don't. know. what. to. say.
When they take him off the machine and he passes, my boy will cry and I'll feel every tear that falls. because we're that close, and then I'll know what to say. I'll tell him how strong he is and how amazing of a person he is. How much he means to me and I'm sure his grandpa felt the same. How I love him with everything I have, and so does his grandfather. How I'm sorry he had to go, but atleast he's not suffering and you know he loves you.
YOU KNOW IT.
"Even though only twenty percent of my grandfather's heart is working, he still told me he loved me with all of it"
He's devastated. I don't know what to say. and I just wish I had the power to make it better and know what to say.
I played drums at church tonight and i get to play them sunday morning for the first time. I should be excited, but I'm not. While I was there playing them drums and getting my performance perfected, one of the people I care about most was somewhere else. crying. dying inside. loosing everything he knows.
and i was drumming.
and i still don't know what to say. I feel like a horrible girlfriend. I want his pain to go away. I want him to smile like he used to.
I want him watching me drum without and once of pain, just smiles and happiness.
But he can't. and i don't know what to say to him to make it better. I can't.