Three more days till "vacation"! and other random musings
Finally, it is finals week, and I'm almost through the summer quarter! I need a break. My early class has me exhausted, since I'm not getting enough sleep (I live with night owls and have issues that make me anxious about sleep). If I can just wake up early for three more days, then I can proceed on to summer vacation! Finals are tomorrow and Thursday. I must ace them. Perfect scores, as I did at midterms.
Then, I'll have the house all to myself for a week! Sole possesion of the remote is a very important thing during the Olympics! Has anyone else been religiously following the Olympics? I've been making sure to get all of the gymnastics on tape. It makes me miss gymn enough that I've taken to doing covert full turns and leaps on the curb in parking lots.
Next week will be a great week to be a vegetable on the couch. I need a week off from pressing myself to work out. Also, it'll probably be that monthly time. I hope any monthly problems will hold off until I get through finals. I don't need any more crap to deal with in the mornings.
Since I'll be impersonating a veggie next week, I think it'll be a great time for a fast. Usually, I don't fast because I need energy to deal with LIFE, but next week, while I've got the house to myself, is a rare and wonderful opportunity. I'm debating, juice fast, Master Cleanse, or a limit of 200 cals of veggies daily? I'm leaning towards the clease right now.
Hopefully next week will be a good time to get my head back together. I've been struggling with a lack of motivation to do anything, which I've come to recognize is really burnout combined with self-doubt. It takes so much energy to try to stay enthusiastic about doing things I'm convinced I'm lousy at. I always feel so embarrased that I look like a fool in the public view, and I'm so intense with what I would require of myself, that it is easier to just give up and not try. This is a very bad habit and way of thinking, and I need to figure out how to pull myself together. A chance to get enough sleep and a quiet house will help.
It'll be nice to have the place to myself. Sometimes being around my family drives me completely nuts (no exageration)! Why did I decide to go back to school instead of taking that great secretarial job that would pay for rent, again? Being here just drives me further towards the looney bin.
I hate that when my dad eats, he chews so loudly I can hear it from another room. This has always bothered me, but I get yelled at if I ask him to chew with his mouth closed. It should not be possible to hear someone chewing from another room! It makes me feel repulsed by eating. No wonder I'm weird about food...
I just finished reading "Wasted" by Marya Horbacher. I will probably post some thoughts about it later.
Goodnight, y'all.
Then, I'll have the house all to myself for a week! Sole possesion of the remote is a very important thing during the Olympics! Has anyone else been religiously following the Olympics? I've been making sure to get all of the gymnastics on tape. It makes me miss gymn enough that I've taken to doing covert full turns and leaps on the curb in parking lots.
Next week will be a great week to be a vegetable on the couch. I need a week off from pressing myself to work out. Also, it'll probably be that monthly time. I hope any monthly problems will hold off until I get through finals. I don't need any more crap to deal with in the mornings.
Since I'll be impersonating a veggie next week, I think it'll be a great time for a fast. Usually, I don't fast because I need energy to deal with LIFE, but next week, while I've got the house to myself, is a rare and wonderful opportunity. I'm debating, juice fast, Master Cleanse, or a limit of 200 cals of veggies daily? I'm leaning towards the clease right now.
Hopefully next week will be a good time to get my head back together. I've been struggling with a lack of motivation to do anything, which I've come to recognize is really burnout combined with self-doubt. It takes so much energy to try to stay enthusiastic about doing things I'm convinced I'm lousy at. I always feel so embarrased that I look like a fool in the public view, and I'm so intense with what I would require of myself, that it is easier to just give up and not try. This is a very bad habit and way of thinking, and I need to figure out how to pull myself together. A chance to get enough sleep and a quiet house will help.
It'll be nice to have the place to myself. Sometimes being around my family drives me completely nuts (no exageration)! Why did I decide to go back to school instead of taking that great secretarial job that would pay for rent, again? Being here just drives me further towards the looney bin.
I hate that when my dad eats, he chews so loudly I can hear it from another room. This has always bothered me, but I get yelled at if I ask him to chew with his mouth closed. It should not be possible to hear someone chewing from another room! It makes me feel repulsed by eating. No wonder I'm weird about food...
I just finished reading "Wasted" by Marya Horbacher. I will probably post some thoughts about it later.
Goodnight, y'all.