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Lookie here, I am going to post again, because I am actively procrastinating. I have all this work that needs to be done here, and now, I know how to do it, and yet I still don't do it. Did you know that Johnny Depp is 41yrs old? I do, and did you also know that he has a home in LA and a two homes in france? Again, I do, guess why... no really, go ahead and guess...it is because instead of doing my work that is to be done by tomorrow, I have been reading up on Johnny Depp, he was once engaged to winnona rider, and got a tattoo that said winnona forever, but he got it changed to wino forever...hehehe, um... he also has a tattoo of his mom's name on his left arm and a cherokee indian symbol on his right arm. Okie, I know I sound a bit obsessed, but I am not, I am just actively procrastinating.
I wish that I could get on to live journal and post these amazing insightful things about my life, and the things that I have learned from it, but that is not going to be happening at least not for now; I cannot write down insightful things without "taking the gloves off" and it is just too much of a hassle to deal with right now.
I could be all flowery but I have opted for more realism right now. Its funny to be real and not to be filled with fairy tales and make believe. I am usually very much the idealist but right now, I am content to say that life is life and sometimes you just have to sit in silence and wait...uh oh, I must be getting really bored, insightful...at least in my definition of the word, things are coming out. Anyways, we could sit and complain about this thing that didn't work out or that, or even that. Let me say that I have had a trillion things planned and even more have fallen through, but I am living and breathing and I have people who care about me and I have little bursts of sunshine, so who can complain. *breaks into a chorus of 'I am walking on sunshine'"
One and a half hours left of work and counting, woohoo! I may waste this entire afternoon yet. Hehehe.
I do miss my make believe and fairy tales, and the ever popular dreams. Everything seems very bleak and dry right now, I don't know why. My quiet times with God have been kinda uneventful, until today, I had a very nice time today. Things feel like I am becoming PRACTICAL, something I have NEVER EVER EVER wanted to become. Ick! Practicality! I have a job, I am working to get a car, I am in a show, I am planing on going to school in the fall, and there is nothing off the wall, crazy, exciting, and amazing about it. No fun auditions for touring companies, no auditions with Jay, no trip plans, no christmas lights, no...no...no...fun.
I don't want to grow up, I want to be stupid and childlike forever...No I do want to grow up, I just don't want to be normal..normal job, normal car, normal house, and a normal life. Please! Please! PLEASE GOD! Don't let me become normal. I am a character out of make believe, romantic comedy situations DO happen and WILL!
I feel that I am contradicting myself at every angle, oh well...as Johnny Depp says, "I pretty much try to stay in a constant state of confusion just because of the expression it leaves on my face."
I wish that I could get on to live journal and post these amazing insightful things about my life, and the things that I have learned from it, but that is not going to be happening at least not for now; I cannot write down insightful things without "taking the gloves off" and it is just too much of a hassle to deal with right now.
I could be all flowery but I have opted for more realism right now. Its funny to be real and not to be filled with fairy tales and make believe. I am usually very much the idealist but right now, I am content to say that life is life and sometimes you just have to sit in silence and wait...uh oh, I must be getting really bored, insightful...at least in my definition of the word, things are coming out. Anyways, we could sit and complain about this thing that didn't work out or that, or even that. Let me say that I have had a trillion things planned and even more have fallen through, but I am living and breathing and I have people who care about me and I have little bursts of sunshine, so who can complain. *breaks into a chorus of 'I am walking on sunshine'"
One and a half hours left of work and counting, woohoo! I may waste this entire afternoon yet. Hehehe.
I do miss my make believe and fairy tales, and the ever popular dreams. Everything seems very bleak and dry right now, I don't know why. My quiet times with God have been kinda uneventful, until today, I had a very nice time today. Things feel like I am becoming PRACTICAL, something I have NEVER EVER EVER wanted to become. Ick! Practicality! I have a job, I am working to get a car, I am in a show, I am planing on going to school in the fall, and there is nothing off the wall, crazy, exciting, and amazing about it. No fun auditions for touring companies, no auditions with Jay, no trip plans, no christmas lights, no...no...no...fun.
I don't want to grow up, I want to be stupid and childlike forever...No I do want to grow up, I just don't want to be normal..normal job, normal car, normal house, and a normal life. Please! Please! PLEASE GOD! Don't let me become normal. I am a character out of make believe, romantic comedy situations DO happen and WILL!
I feel that I am contradicting myself at every angle, oh well...as Johnny Depp says, "I pretty much try to stay in a constant state of confusion just because of the expression it leaves on my face."