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I'm freaking out right now.
I'm afraid of what I'm feeling about certain things. I'm scaring myself because I've never been so vulerable in my entire life. I've always been strong as a person, but right now I feel I'm at my weakest point I've ever been.
I'm crying at the drop of a hat and I'm not able to handle my feelings.
What is wrong with me?
I'm also compromising a lot of my feelings, and that's usually not me. I'm actually compromising a lot of things in my life, and I'm not entirely sure why.
I'm not the only one with a handle on my heart, and it's pretty scary. I'm not gonna lie, I'm pretty uncomfortable with these feelings! Maybe because they're so new, and I've never experienced them before?
"I'm not afraid of feeling
and I'm not afraid of trying
I'm just afraid of losing
And I am afraid of dying.
I'm not afraid of looking ugly
I couldn't care what they say
I'm not afraid of happy endings,
I'm just afraid my life won't work that way."