I woke up again..
Everytime I go to sleep I wish that I don't wake up, never seems to work that way :-( So now I am awake for another day. Start the day with some nice algebra, followed by some self medicating etc. Seems like noone understands me anymore. Chris is wonderful as he could possibly be, but even he doesn't know how I feel most of the time and the things that run through my head. Sometimes I want to tell him, but then I think what good could it possibly do. Plus I want him to just know some stuff I don't want to have to explain everything all the time. 'sigh' I don't know what to do anymore. I don't feel like I can trust anyone anymore like I can't really count on anybody. And I was just reading Tiffany's blog on my space and shes totally depressed and cutting her self.. I guess it's just our fucked up family.