Everything gone, give a damn.
Today was end. I am in a state of total suffocation. I don't understand not being trusted by adults, I don't understand boys who look like men, and I don't understand why I've lived in fear of June 14, 2007 for so long.
I will be so happy to begin again somewhere better. To leave behind ugly memories, stagnant relationships, meaningless nights.
I am, at this point, counting down the days until I no longer have to be a resident of Childhood 94903.
So much of high school has been utter bullshit to me. In my eyes, it is a necessary learning experience that I've used to grow as a person. And I've gotten everything there is to get. I'm so done.
One year from now- no, 4 months from now- I will look back on this miserable way of living in this petty little town and laugh. And I will probably not understand how any of us ever made it out in one piece.
It's been fun. But, for the first time I mean it when I say I'm over it. I know Everyone is just going to take this the wrong way. Which makes me even more over it.
I will be so happy to begin again somewhere better. To leave behind ugly memories, stagnant relationships, meaningless nights.
I am, at this point, counting down the days until I no longer have to be a resident of Childhood 94903.
So much of high school has been utter bullshit to me. In my eyes, it is a necessary learning experience that I've used to grow as a person. And I've gotten everything there is to get. I'm so done.
One year from now- no, 4 months from now- I will look back on this miserable way of living in this petty little town and laugh. And I will probably not understand how any of us ever made it out in one piece.
It's been fun. But, for the first time I mean it when I say I'm over it. I know Everyone is just going to take this the wrong way. Which makes me even more over it.