dont assume this is about you... why wouldnt you ask?

[starlette16]

i think its funny when people say they care.. and then they go and do the exact opposite of what they say. ignore me? fine go ahead. you know i'm ruined now anyway.

my back is aching, i feel so wrecked
i'm not one to cry over this, but to hold me back.. what is left?
nothing
nothing?
nothing.
well when the day comes, for me to scream out my lungs
i'll hold my breath long, and go for the plunge.
you cant hold me back, i wont let you much longer,
you'll learn how i feel
one way or another.

so next time i'm in bed, and i'm thinking about you
i'll write myself a letter, remind me not to be such a fool
i'll whisper softly to my ceiling, please dont let me sleep
for sleeping would mean dreaming, of things i'd have to think
about you and me and us and them
and all this confusing mess
who can i trust? who will trust me?
no one is left i guess.

i just need you here to call and say
"listen luby everything will be ok"
and though a part of this is true
i could never be anything without the likes of you.