just a lil ranting and raving
well this is my first posting, and it does not look like i am going to be able to start this new adventure. i guess i just don'e get people sometimes. they ask for your help but when u give it they throw it back in your face. but are they really asking for your help or just your attention. but eventually i think they are asking for your pity and your anger. so u just quit caring because they really aren't in trouble at all.
sometimes i wish i didn't have such a big heart because not caring really hurts no matter how mad i get. i know he needs someone but i am not sure the right someone is me, for i will not be here for much longer. and if i am not here will he be here anymore? i know that he will find someone else to feel sorry for him, but somewhere in the back of my mind i feel i have let him down. and if i let him down, am i not letting myself down in return??