(no subject)
I'd like to begin this evening with acknowledging that I have loved a few people in my lifetime.
Each one of these few I have loved more than the other-- but, the order doesn't matter.
The most out of these few I loved and lost. Things were complex, I couldn't change and hold on. I no longer could believe. I couldn't resist being angry and feeling attacked. I wouldn't yield. We ended. I moved on.
I've now learned, through all of everything, that had that scenario gone any further-- it would have been a disaster.
But, before I get ahead of myself, there was one that I loved more than him.
This one was the moon and the stars and everything that you hear about in the most out of this world love songs.
This one was romance. This one would have made it right.
Well, I fucked that one up real good.
I was young and naiive. I didn't know what I wanted. I couldn't say it, it was too awkward.
And now.. the physical isn't here anymore.
His soul has went on.
All I'm left with is whatever I can feel.
Maybe, that's what I need.
Each one of these few I have loved more than the other-- but, the order doesn't matter.
The most out of these few I loved and lost. Things were complex, I couldn't change and hold on. I no longer could believe. I couldn't resist being angry and feeling attacked. I wouldn't yield. We ended. I moved on.
I've now learned, through all of everything, that had that scenario gone any further-- it would have been a disaster.
But, before I get ahead of myself, there was one that I loved more than him.
This one was the moon and the stars and everything that you hear about in the most out of this world love songs.
This one was romance. This one would have made it right.
Well, I fucked that one up real good.
I was young and naiive. I didn't know what I wanted. I couldn't say it, it was too awkward.
And now.. the physical isn't here anymore.
His soul has went on.
All I'm left with is whatever I can feel.
Maybe, that's what I need.