Yes it's irritating
On the words of someone else I decided to check out Myspace. Turns out it is addictive and highly likeable. Started chatting to a guy. Decided days in between each message was starting to get a little ridiculous and so we decided to move onto MSN. Things were going really well. Before we noticed we had been chatting for hours nearly every day. It hit me kind of suddenly, and I realised I had a semi-crush on this guy that I had never met. Being one to not really hold off telling people stuff like that on something like the internet, I told him. I didn't really expect it to go anywhere nor mean a great deal, until I found out that feeling was semi-reciporacted. I didn't really know what I wanted to do with this information until he said that he wasn't sure what he wanted to do with it either. Now it makes me want to take things somewhere. Major problem number one, this guy lives in a different state. It isn't really -far- by the actual definition of the word, but it would require a lot of effort from both sides. But, and this isn't related to him, I am going to his state in just over 2 weeks, which he knows, but hasn't really made any suggestions. I haven't either, but lets face it, me telling him is invitation enough right? Major problem number two, this guy wants to travel. He isn't exactly sure where, he just knows he doesn't want to stay where he is at the moment. I feel as though I am trying to pressue this guy into meeting me and seeing what could happen a little against his will. He hasn't officially said that he doesn't want to, but he doesn't seem all that keen on doing it and isn't all that forthcoming with information when the subject comes up. I keep thinking I should leave it, but then half bring it up again. Yet, he was the one that brought up the subject matter of where to take things from here. Part of me thinks that part of him wants to do something, but then again don't they say actions speak louder than words? Which seems a strange thing to say when the only thing I have to go by is actual words. I seem to think that if I could talk to him, maybe things could be worked out a little easier that way, but then it is a matter of trying to convine him of that. It doesn't seem worth it. The only reason I am actually really bothering is because I feel like I have some kind of connection with this guy, as cliched as that is going to sound. But that doesn't happen often with me. Also, it seems we want the same things out of a relationship, which hasn't really happened to me in what seems like forever. I know I am being ridiculous. I know I should leave it. If anyone has ANY help/advice/wisdom I would love to hear it. Doing something like this is completely unlike me. I don't know why I am even thinking about it.