Healing!
At this point in my life I am healing. Both physical and mental scars.
The pain I can live with, as I know at some point it will no longer be there.
Images
The images of the accident will stay with me always. I need to heal my outlook upon the flashbacks before I can deal with them. I have requested councelling to help me deal with all of this.
Friendships
After the accident I was so overwhelmed to see Lora in the hospital. I did not for one minute expect to see her. I do not care for our arguements of late, or our petty squabbles. She is someone I love deeply, I miss her when she is not there and she gives me great strength. She was with me when I needed her the most. If I had died on Sunday, argueing with her would be a major regret. Something I would have taken to the grave. We are healing our friendship also and this inspired me to be more positive about my physical wounds.
Pain of Others
I feel great remorse for their pain, every part of me wishing I could take it away. Even if it meant that i had to add their pain to my own I would do it without a second thought.
Drugs
My head is quite pecked. Its taken me hours to type this. Going to rest now and try and think a little clearer. Oh yeah I got offered £2,900 for my car. Don't know what I want to buy, but don't know if I want to drive either.
Will talk more tomorrow. Exhausted.
Angie x x x