Rookie

[starless_mind]

I never thought this could be me
I guess you never do until it's happening to you
Like all the fun turns into shame
And all the "could have beens" rearrange
So little time, so many crimes
Guilt like a chain chokes my will away
Redemption never seemed so cruel
And all my Gods never seemed so weak

Wake up, engage
Now derailed and enraged
It used to be so easy...
Get up, I'm game
Now I'm sick and I'm tame
Counting cost with loss

Where is the hope that they gave?
Don't think that I can't hear you laugh
I used to be a lot like you
But now I'm only me
I used to be a lot like you
But now I'm only me
I'm only me

Drink to pills to shots
Fun turns into shock
A habit and a pawn
For every hand goes round
And the pain gets so damned loud
The hammer hits and I'm down
I'm down
I'm down
I'm down
Trust no one
Hey, why should I?
They gave me poison dressed like life
Cheated, smaked up and diseased
Cry to sleep and fight to eat
Used to be a pro at this
Now I've broken my own wrist
Rotten teeth and life unsung
You'll forget me when I'm gone

Wake up, engage
Now derailed and enraged
It used to be so easy...
Get up, I'm game
Now I'm sick and I'm tame
Counting cost with loss

I used to be a lot like you
But now I'm only me
I used to be a lot like you
But now I'm only me
I'm only me