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x magnum heart (1:18:40 PM): loves a very deceptive thing
x magnum heart (1:18:43 PM): ive already learned that
I never update this thing so you know its gotta be somewhat important. I read that little statement up there from a conversation Brock had with some girl from myspace after she talked about stayed with her boyfriend when he hit her.
Hmm... I don't get what the fuck he means by deceptive because by definition I know it means: Deceptive, or tending to decieve. Apparently Brock doesnt know what it means unless it means that the person who loves you does everything for you, cares about you more than anyone ever has and ever will, and puts up with all kinds of bullshit and abuse on a daily basis.
Haha.. he said he wanted to beat up her boyfriend for hitting her and cheating on her. He should send himself to the hospital for all the bruises he's left on me, not to mention for breaking up with me for other girls, and cheating on me. He deserves to be in the hospital for that kinda shit.
Hmm... hypocrite is the first word that comes to mind for me.
I fucking gave him a year, when I should have fucking ended it way back in August when he broke up with me for another girl and then tried to come back to me. Once again I should have ended it in December when he lied to my face about cheating on me with some girl at a show. Mostly I should have cut off all ties with him when he broke up with me and once again lied to my face about trying to get back with his exgirlfriend. You'd think I'd learn right? I never do though apparently.
So many times I should have just ended everything, like at the ORR show when he grabbed me so hard for the first time he left black and blue marks up my arm, and literally scared me half to death. Not to mention all the other times he did it. I should have ended it after all the promises he made to me were broken, but I didnt.
I apparently must enjoy punishment, because I keep putting myself through it.
I'm done letting him fuck with my head and lead me on when all he wants to do is try to get with girls off myspace who better fit his image. Sorry I'm not all wicked scene enough for him. At least I'm not trying to be something else just to be cool though. Haha, whoever in OTI commented that, you were so right.
I'm so sick of this shit, why should I fucking walk on eggshells and try to constantly be super duper nice to you and apologize for shit YOU should be apologizing for, just so I have another chance with you. Sorry buddy, it should be the other way around because I didnt do anything wrong, YOU were the one that fucked up, not me.
Why should I try to keep us together when you clearly want another life, one with out me. Especially when guys like Dan actually like me and try to make me feel good about myself when I constantly down myself because of what YOU did to me.
FUCK YOU.
x magnum heart (1:18:43 PM): ive already learned that
I never update this thing so you know its gotta be somewhat important. I read that little statement up there from a conversation Brock had with some girl from myspace after she talked about stayed with her boyfriend when he hit her.
Hmm... I don't get what the fuck he means by deceptive because by definition I know it means: Deceptive, or tending to decieve. Apparently Brock doesnt know what it means unless it means that the person who loves you does everything for you, cares about you more than anyone ever has and ever will, and puts up with all kinds of bullshit and abuse on a daily basis.
Haha.. he said he wanted to beat up her boyfriend for hitting her and cheating on her. He should send himself to the hospital for all the bruises he's left on me, not to mention for breaking up with me for other girls, and cheating on me. He deserves to be in the hospital for that kinda shit.
Hmm... hypocrite is the first word that comes to mind for me.
I fucking gave him a year, when I should have fucking ended it way back in August when he broke up with me for another girl and then tried to come back to me. Once again I should have ended it in December when he lied to my face about cheating on me with some girl at a show. Mostly I should have cut off all ties with him when he broke up with me and once again lied to my face about trying to get back with his exgirlfriend. You'd think I'd learn right? I never do though apparently.
So many times I should have just ended everything, like at the ORR show when he grabbed me so hard for the first time he left black and blue marks up my arm, and literally scared me half to death. Not to mention all the other times he did it. I should have ended it after all the promises he made to me were broken, but I didnt.
I apparently must enjoy punishment, because I keep putting myself through it.
I'm done letting him fuck with my head and lead me on when all he wants to do is try to get with girls off myspace who better fit his image. Sorry I'm not all wicked scene enough for him. At least I'm not trying to be something else just to be cool though. Haha, whoever in OTI commented that, you were so right.
I'm so sick of this shit, why should I fucking walk on eggshells and try to constantly be super duper nice to you and apologize for shit YOU should be apologizing for, just so I have another chance with you. Sorry buddy, it should be the other way around because I didnt do anything wrong, YOU were the one that fucked up, not me.
Why should I try to keep us together when you clearly want another life, one with out me. Especially when guys like Dan actually like me and try to make me feel good about myself when I constantly down myself because of what YOU did to me.
FUCK YOU.