Aug 28, 2006 05:38
3 weeks left to go...thank god. I never want to leave again and I hope I never do. Its not worth it. I have to say the only thing I benefited from being here is that I got a chance to focus on working out and lost some weight. Otherwise I have had to deal with the most unruly people i have ever come in contact with. Ok except for my LiL marine friend whose has been loyal to me since I came here. Besides him, I have felt the wrath of envious and untrusting people. People who would go out of their way to bring you down with lies and betrayal. I know I will never see these people again and because of it I have given up all hope in trying to defend myself. Who you are doesnt matter here, its all about how you are perceived. If you are quiet and to yourself then you are stuck up and antisocial. If you try to socialize and be yourself then your stuck up and social and they envy you for the fact you can be liked and that your the center of attention or whatever shit they think you are. Its pathetic and your boundaries are definately tested. People here stab you in all different directions. Its crazy. I've never seen it this bad. But I guess i have to take an experience like this and learn from it. Or else I'll keep dealing with the same shit. Anyway...like i said....3 weeks is all i have left and after that i get to see my sweet sweet baby who I have been aching for since the moment i left her at the airport. I love her to death.