i'm al, i'm al, i'm alright
so many things are happening that i cant even put my finger on them
it seems like everything's changing: friends, school, life in general. i'm not sure what im doing as far as school next year. possibly college. it's looking like it. i used to think that was really scary, but this year, having friends in college, and going to school on campus has changed that. it's not just big and bad. i think there's a general consensus that i hate high school, this i know. i guess my amy-ness just doesn't mix with it. too much drama, too much messiness, too much everything. nothing is in moderation. at least that's how i feel at my school. high school PEOPLE, as in the people ive met along the way: priceless. i absolutely adore them. so school in louisiana, school in new york, or school in virginia? all of those seem to be options right now. we'll see. mom'd love for me to stay home and go to lsu, but a part of me just wants to explore. i think that's natural.
i feel like in a matter of months, every single one of my close friends has been pushed farther from me in some kind of way. the reason for most of it is because of changing schools, of course. for some reason, though, telling your heart that the reason it feels like all of your friends are worlds away is because of school does not help. other friends it's like we're just drifting into different people. i found myself telling someone the other day "i have no idea who you are" and absolutely meaning it. it's kind of sad, but i have to believe everything'll work out for the best.
i think thats the best thing i can attribute to my time away from livejournal, where i've just been exploring and living. i have this new sense of...everything. i was driving home yesterday (with the windows down, of course) and i heard a song which says "i guess i'm doing alright. i know the sun's still shining when i close my eyes" and i really do know that. yea, some things suck. sometimes im sad or angry or scared or frustrated, but ive got a good life and im a cool cat, and im doing alright. i feel this incredible sense of peace about my life. even if that means minus some things that i want to be closer to me, i think that everything is the way it is for the better. and im happy. really.
:)
it seems like everything's changing: friends, school, life in general. i'm not sure what im doing as far as school next year. possibly college. it's looking like it. i used to think that was really scary, but this year, having friends in college, and going to school on campus has changed that. it's not just big and bad. i think there's a general consensus that i hate high school, this i know. i guess my amy-ness just doesn't mix with it. too much drama, too much messiness, too much everything. nothing is in moderation. at least that's how i feel at my school. high school PEOPLE, as in the people ive met along the way: priceless. i absolutely adore them. so school in louisiana, school in new york, or school in virginia? all of those seem to be options right now. we'll see. mom'd love for me to stay home and go to lsu, but a part of me just wants to explore. i think that's natural.
i feel like in a matter of months, every single one of my close friends has been pushed farther from me in some kind of way. the reason for most of it is because of changing schools, of course. for some reason, though, telling your heart that the reason it feels like all of your friends are worlds away is because of school does not help. other friends it's like we're just drifting into different people. i found myself telling someone the other day "i have no idea who you are" and absolutely meaning it. it's kind of sad, but i have to believe everything'll work out for the best.
i think thats the best thing i can attribute to my time away from livejournal, where i've just been exploring and living. i have this new sense of...everything. i was driving home yesterday (with the windows down, of course) and i heard a song which says "i guess i'm doing alright. i know the sun's still shining when i close my eyes" and i really do know that. yea, some things suck. sometimes im sad or angry or scared or frustrated, but ive got a good life and im a cool cat, and im doing alright. i feel this incredible sense of peace about my life. even if that means minus some things that i want to be closer to me, i think that everything is the way it is for the better. and im happy. really.
:)