FIC: Sami (Glee) (1/2)
Title: Sami
Author: starkidwarbler
Pairing: Sam/Finn
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Angst
Spoilers: General season 3 spoilers
Disclaimer: I do not own.
Summary: Mr. Shue had tasked each member of the club to sing about something- anything- that they were feeling that week. Finn could only sing about Sam.
Author's Notes: This will have a part 2.
Finn hated this glee assignment.
Mr. Shue had tasked each member of the club to sing about something- anything- that they were feeling that week. Apparently, he felt as if the majority of the club members were a bit down, so he wanted to give them all the chance to get it out. And if Finn were completely honest, as much as he’d rather think of something else, he needed to use this assignment for what it was intended and get it all out there.
This is how he found himself pillaging his itunes library for anything that might convey the ‘I have no idea what to do with the fact that I’ve fallen for another guy, and that I might be bi, and he’s probably not’ feeling.
Two hours later, he found the perfect thing to sing. Now if he could just get his mind to shut up, maybe he could get some sleep. He had two days to practice it before the performance, and two days to keep it from anyone who might figure it out before he was ready for them to.
***
Sean smiled as Finn Hudson entered his bedroom, looking a little confused, and maybe a bit antsy. It had been about a week since he’d last been over, and as the other boy had been busy this year, it was a bit of a surprise to see him again so soon, albeit a nice one.
“Long time, no see,” He joked. Finn smirked, and sat down on the chair beside his friend’s bed.
“Hey, dude.”
Sean couldn’t help but worry when Finn’s smile dropped a bit, his eyes lacking their usual glint.
“What’s on your mind?” He asked. Whatever it was, the other boy was getting more nervous by the minute.
“I…I think I might be bisexual.” He paused. “I know you were always cool when I talked about Kurt and stuff, so I figured you’d be okay with me, but if you’re not-”
“Finn!” He stopped the frankenteen. “Don’t worry. You’ll always be okay with me.”
Finn breathed a sigh of relief before the smile returned to his face. It wasn’t much of one, granted, but it was a start.
“I’m about to do something stupid in Glee about it.” Sean frowned.
“I don’t think coming out to your friends is stupid, Finn. They’ll be cool with it. Though I’d recommend telling your family first.”
Finn fidgeted in his chair before replying, “It’s not coming out that scares me. I broke up with Rachel last week because I’ve- I’ve really fallen for this one guy. I know he’ll probably never like me back, but I can’t pretend that he’s not under my skin, you know?”
“So what is this thing you’re gonna do about it in Glee?”
“This week, we’re uh…supposed to sing about whatever we’re feeling, so I’m singing about that. I’m gonna say “he” in the song rather than “she,” so that’s got me a little antsy. And what if somehow he knows? Kurt’s probably gonna want to talk about it afterwards.” The last bit seemed as if it were something he was just realizing and telling himself. “Oh, and considering how many times Puck has assumed that I was hot for Kurt, he’s probably gonna ask me again if I’m gay.”
Sean smiled, “Is it Puckerman that’s caught your eye?”
“No! Uh…” He rubbed the back of his neck, “It’s Sam.”
“The guy you brought all the way from Kentucky to live with you so he could rejoin New Directions?” Finn nodded. “Well, from what you’ve told me, he seems like a pretty alright guy. I don’t think he’ll freak out on you.”
“Yeah, he’s been better to Kurt than I have at times. Whether a person likes guys or girls or both doesn’t seem to matter to him.”
“Well that’s good.” Sean paused, “Wanna practice that song here? I’d love to hear it!”
***
Finn’s hands twitched around the sheet of lyrics he’d written out for himself to ensure he didn’t slip and say the wrong ones as he waited for Mr. Shuester to call him to the front. He was going last, which was both a blessing and a curse. It meant that if he had to, he could run out afterward. Not before, though, he reminded himself. He was going to do this. There would be no chickening out now.
His heart was pounding beneath his skin in the worst of ways, and yet, he felt a sudden sense of exhilaration when he was called upon to sing. His feet moved, determination in every step he didn’t control, and he found himself standing at the front of the room.
“So, I guess I should probably tell you guys that this song is actually two songs I’ve put together, but they’re the same thing, written by the same guy, but with different words. One was in a musical, and one was on his EP. I just needed to change the chorus and the pronouns out.”
The entire club looked at him expectantly as he signaled Brad with his eyes to start playing.
He breathed, and began:
I've seen his face, I've heard his name
I've lost my place and he's to blame.
And I can't stand it when I'm staring in his eyes,
And he's not looking back
It ain't a big surprise
Faces ranged from shocked, to interested, to unimpressed as his friends all noticed he said “he” and not “she”.
I've heard music, I've heard noise
I wish that he could hear his voice
The way that I do, when I go to sleep at night
And dream my life away
But he's gone when I awake
Surprisingly, Puck gave him a nod of encouragement and support as he readied himself for the chorus.
Harry
Harry
Why can't you see
What you're doing to me
If he didn’t immediately need to breathe for the next line, he’d have sighed in relief that he didn’t mess up and say Sami.
The way his hair falls in his eyes, makes me wonder if
He'll ever see through my disguise, I'm under his spell
Everything is fallin', but I don't know where to land
Everyone knows who he is
But he don't know who I am
Harry
Harry
Why can't you see
What you're doing to me
He looked to his feet for the next part, because if he couldn’t look at Sam, he didn’t think he should look at anyone at all. It didn’t feel right.
I've see you singin' on that stage,
Looking like an angel and all I do is pray (that maybe)
One day you'll hear my song and understand that all along
There's something more that I'm trying to say, when I say
Harry
Harry
Why can't you see
What you're doing to me (what you're doing to me)
Harry
Ooh when I say
Harry
When I say
Why can't you see
What you're doing to me
What you're doing to me
As the song ended, his breathing quickened. The room was silent.
What have I done?
Finn ran, leaving his stuff, and a rather confused Glee club, behind.
***
Author: starkidwarbler
Pairing: Sam/Finn
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Angst
Spoilers: General season 3 spoilers
Disclaimer: I do not own.
Summary: Mr. Shue had tasked each member of the club to sing about something- anything- that they were feeling that week. Finn could only sing about Sam.
Author's Notes: This will have a part 2.
Finn hated this glee assignment.
Mr. Shue had tasked each member of the club to sing about something- anything- that they were feeling that week. Apparently, he felt as if the majority of the club members were a bit down, so he wanted to give them all the chance to get it out. And if Finn were completely honest, as much as he’d rather think of something else, he needed to use this assignment for what it was intended and get it all out there.
This is how he found himself pillaging his itunes library for anything that might convey the ‘I have no idea what to do with the fact that I’ve fallen for another guy, and that I might be bi, and he’s probably not’ feeling.
Two hours later, he found the perfect thing to sing. Now if he could just get his mind to shut up, maybe he could get some sleep. He had two days to practice it before the performance, and two days to keep it from anyone who might figure it out before he was ready for them to.
***
Sean smiled as Finn Hudson entered his bedroom, looking a little confused, and maybe a bit antsy. It had been about a week since he’d last been over, and as the other boy had been busy this year, it was a bit of a surprise to see him again so soon, albeit a nice one.
“Long time, no see,” He joked. Finn smirked, and sat down on the chair beside his friend’s bed.
“Hey, dude.”
Sean couldn’t help but worry when Finn’s smile dropped a bit, his eyes lacking their usual glint.
“What’s on your mind?” He asked. Whatever it was, the other boy was getting more nervous by the minute.
“I…I think I might be bisexual.” He paused. “I know you were always cool when I talked about Kurt and stuff, so I figured you’d be okay with me, but if you’re not-”
“Finn!” He stopped the frankenteen. “Don’t worry. You’ll always be okay with me.”
Finn breathed a sigh of relief before the smile returned to his face. It wasn’t much of one, granted, but it was a start.
“I’m about to do something stupid in Glee about it.” Sean frowned.
“I don’t think coming out to your friends is stupid, Finn. They’ll be cool with it. Though I’d recommend telling your family first.”
Finn fidgeted in his chair before replying, “It’s not coming out that scares me. I broke up with Rachel last week because I’ve- I’ve really fallen for this one guy. I know he’ll probably never like me back, but I can’t pretend that he’s not under my skin, you know?”
“So what is this thing you’re gonna do about it in Glee?”
“This week, we’re uh…supposed to sing about whatever we’re feeling, so I’m singing about that. I’m gonna say “he” in the song rather than “she,” so that’s got me a little antsy. And what if somehow he knows? Kurt’s probably gonna want to talk about it afterwards.” The last bit seemed as if it were something he was just realizing and telling himself. “Oh, and considering how many times Puck has assumed that I was hot for Kurt, he’s probably gonna ask me again if I’m gay.”
Sean smiled, “Is it Puckerman that’s caught your eye?”
“No! Uh…” He rubbed the back of his neck, “It’s Sam.”
“The guy you brought all the way from Kentucky to live with you so he could rejoin New Directions?” Finn nodded. “Well, from what you’ve told me, he seems like a pretty alright guy. I don’t think he’ll freak out on you.”
“Yeah, he’s been better to Kurt than I have at times. Whether a person likes guys or girls or both doesn’t seem to matter to him.”
“Well that’s good.” Sean paused, “Wanna practice that song here? I’d love to hear it!”
***
Finn’s hands twitched around the sheet of lyrics he’d written out for himself to ensure he didn’t slip and say the wrong ones as he waited for Mr. Shuester to call him to the front. He was going last, which was both a blessing and a curse. It meant that if he had to, he could run out afterward. Not before, though, he reminded himself. He was going to do this. There would be no chickening out now.
His heart was pounding beneath his skin in the worst of ways, and yet, he felt a sudden sense of exhilaration when he was called upon to sing. His feet moved, determination in every step he didn’t control, and he found himself standing at the front of the room.
“So, I guess I should probably tell you guys that this song is actually two songs I’ve put together, but they’re the same thing, written by the same guy, but with different words. One was in a musical, and one was on his EP. I just needed to change the chorus and the pronouns out.”
The entire club looked at him expectantly as he signaled Brad with his eyes to start playing.
He breathed, and began:
I've seen his face, I've heard his name
I've lost my place and he's to blame.
And I can't stand it when I'm staring in his eyes,
And he's not looking back
It ain't a big surprise
Faces ranged from shocked, to interested, to unimpressed as his friends all noticed he said “he” and not “she”.
I've heard music, I've heard noise
I wish that he could hear his voice
The way that I do, when I go to sleep at night
And dream my life away
But he's gone when I awake
Surprisingly, Puck gave him a nod of encouragement and support as he readied himself for the chorus.
Harry
Harry
Why can't you see
What you're doing to me
If he didn’t immediately need to breathe for the next line, he’d have sighed in relief that he didn’t mess up and say Sami.
The way his hair falls in his eyes, makes me wonder if
He'll ever see through my disguise, I'm under his spell
Everything is fallin', but I don't know where to land
Everyone knows who he is
But he don't know who I am
Harry
Harry
Why can't you see
What you're doing to me
He looked to his feet for the next part, because if he couldn’t look at Sam, he didn’t think he should look at anyone at all. It didn’t feel right.
I've see you singin' on that stage,
Looking like an angel and all I do is pray (that maybe)
One day you'll hear my song and understand that all along
There's something more that I'm trying to say, when I say
Harry
Harry
Why can't you see
What you're doing to me (what you're doing to me)
Harry
Ooh when I say
Harry
When I say
Why can't you see
What you're doing to me
What you're doing to me
As the song ended, his breathing quickened. The room was silent.
What have I done?
Finn ran, leaving his stuff, and a rather confused Glee club, behind.
***