life for love
thought you'd gone?
i wish i could tell you all the things i've never said. i wish that i could say with words the thoughts and emotions that run through me like trains speeding all to fast when i have anxiety attacks. today i had one at work and it made me think of something. they didnt start when zac died. i used to have them when i was a kid. at dads house. when he had the duplex. i used to have them in my bay-window-bed, crying because dad was too drunk to drive me to school. or because he hit me and i just wanted mom. at any rate that was when i was about 6, or younger. and when i was a kid? my mom claims i had "tantrums" makes me wonder if theres any resemblance. maybe i'll ask her about it. YEAH FUCKING RIGHT.
randy left. or is leaving in the morning. at any rate. good bye randy i'm sorry i'm a stupid fucking girl that didnt say good bye or hang out before you left. i will come visit. that is for sure.
i wish i could tell you all the things i've never said. i wish that i could say with words the thoughts and emotions that run through me like trains speeding all to fast when i have anxiety attacks. today i had one at work and it made me think of something. they didnt start when zac died. i used to have them when i was a kid. at dads house. when he had the duplex. i used to have them in my bay-window-bed, crying because dad was too drunk to drive me to school. or because he hit me and i just wanted mom. at any rate that was when i was about 6, or younger. and when i was a kid? my mom claims i had "tantrums" makes me wonder if theres any resemblance. maybe i'll ask her about it. YEAH FUCKING RIGHT.
randy left. or is leaving in the morning. at any rate. good bye randy i'm sorry i'm a stupid fucking girl that didnt say good bye or hang out before you left. i will come visit. that is for sure.