I Complain A Lot
The last week I have been suffering bad body memories, intense agitation and hyper vigilance that is me re-experiencing a time I would rather not be thinking about. I can't stop thinking about it. I am so scared, so anxious. Hopefully, it will be better again after Tuesday, I hope.
I guess another thing, I'm sick of being lied to, sick of having promises broken, sick of being ditched off. I hate being used as a step ladder, I hate it so much. I feel completely worthless, I get treated like I'm worthless, so my conclusion is that I am. I really, really, don't have anyone I would actually call a friend. Fuck loneliness. Is a friend too much to ask for?
I guess another thing, I'm sick of being lied to, sick of having promises broken, sick of being ditched off. I hate being used as a step ladder, I hate it so much. I feel completely worthless, I get treated like I'm worthless, so my conclusion is that I am. I really, really, don't have anyone I would actually call a friend. Fuck loneliness. Is a friend too much to ask for?