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i just ate a whole big ole can of corn. and now i feel a bit sick. i'm not so sure i do anything in moderation.
i didn't give the sermon last month that i had agreed to do. i backed out. i felt like i was being told that to preach you have to feel "called".. AND that you are speaking the "word of God." and i hit a point where i don't think anyone can claim that they speak the word of God. i don't think anyone down here is big enough to make that claim, and i don't want my name to ever be associated with making such a claim. i don't think God would contradict himself, yet it'd be hard to find two preachers/whatever name they have in their denomination that have the exact same beliefs, or the exact same things to say. the four gospels (matthew, mark, luke, john.. who recorded Jesus' life) didn't even have the exact same stories. half of Christianity is a complete hoax, and half is the Truth. and they've been so intertwined it's hard for anyone to tell the difference.
we're all human. there was a fall. and now we're all separated from God.. and while we're here we're left to wander on our own. there's no promise that our loved ones won't die, that our spouses won't cheat, that AIDS will be cured, or that any of our personal problems won't happen just because we're a Christian. there's no promise for any sort of protection from disease or other people. there's no give-take relationship. and maybe that's depressing and people are scared to face it because they find comfort in thinking they're alright because they're a Christian. but the only promise is that God will get you through whatever, and will love you, and when you're gone you go to be with Him.
i'm not trying to make any sort of speech to convert anybody. if i were i'd sit here and try to think of a gazillion reasons why it's so much better to be a Christian and blah blah. and i'd try to say it all pretty. but i just wanted to sorta think out loud, get that off my chest.
i leave Sunday. CANNOT wait.
i didn't give the sermon last month that i had agreed to do. i backed out. i felt like i was being told that to preach you have to feel "called".. AND that you are speaking the "word of God." and i hit a point where i don't think anyone can claim that they speak the word of God. i don't think anyone down here is big enough to make that claim, and i don't want my name to ever be associated with making such a claim. i don't think God would contradict himself, yet it'd be hard to find two preachers/whatever name they have in their denomination that have the exact same beliefs, or the exact same things to say. the four gospels (matthew, mark, luke, john.. who recorded Jesus' life) didn't even have the exact same stories. half of Christianity is a complete hoax, and half is the Truth. and they've been so intertwined it's hard for anyone to tell the difference.
we're all human. there was a fall. and now we're all separated from God.. and while we're here we're left to wander on our own. there's no promise that our loved ones won't die, that our spouses won't cheat, that AIDS will be cured, or that any of our personal problems won't happen just because we're a Christian. there's no promise for any sort of protection from disease or other people. there's no give-take relationship. and maybe that's depressing and people are scared to face it because they find comfort in thinking they're alright because they're a Christian. but the only promise is that God will get you through whatever, and will love you, and when you're gone you go to be with Him.
i'm not trying to make any sort of speech to convert anybody. if i were i'd sit here and try to think of a gazillion reasons why it's so much better to be a Christian and blah blah. and i'd try to say it all pretty. but i just wanted to sorta think out loud, get that off my chest.
i leave Sunday. CANNOT wait.