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I feel like whatever I eat cancels out whatever exercise I do. I tried to eat "clean" today-- though I slept in for breakfast, lunch was a small bowl of cereal (half Special K and half Raisin Bran) and a big salad, and an apple. Good, right? Well, now it's after work and Momo-chan and I just went to YogurtLand and ate a ton of frozen yogurt D: I'm

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[starile]

Aw, thanks Lydia! Yeah, I know I do sound really obsessive, especially in this calorie-themed journal entry, and it seems all I write about is working out and stuff right? But I hear what you're saying. I'm really not as obsessive in real life as I appear on this page, but I'm trying hard to change genuinely bad habits that I've formed in recent years (I'm already genetically on the fast track to diabetes). At least while I'm building good habits, I feel like it's good to be strict with myself for now, because it gives me structure and direction. Knowing myself, I've always taken advantage of being too lenient in the past, and I've only delved deeper into bad habits by giving myself that excess leeway, which is really what made me feel worse. I'm not going to say that cutting out frozen yogurt and other things are going to make me sad, because that is not what I base my happiness on. I can be happy with healthier options, too! But yes, your words are a great reminder to already be in love with the person I am, and not to stress these little things. =O And that I better speak personally with a professional!

Really, thank you so much for caring. It's kind of a wake-up call to see that in this position I'm in, it'd be easy for a lot of insecure girls (like myself) to measure their worth in what they feel their body SHOULD be like, than what it is. :) It makes me so happy to hear such helpful, enouraging words from you. I better make sure I go about this the right way!