my first time...
u know that saying..."theres a first for everything"
well....duh, of course there is
tonight was my first car accident...
the funny part was that i wasnt even doing anything illegal....and after all the times i changed lanes without signaling, all the speeding, and those few reds that i accidentally ran.....who would have known that my first accident would be caused by cold hands
my hand slipped on the wheel and turned into another car....the only other car on the freaking road! argh.....breath.....ok
i was more concerned with the cost of the damage to my car then anything else....money, or lack there of, is slowly ruining a lot of things in my life.
everyone is ok, and the cars are for the most part ok....
i wasnt scared tho, like....i feel like ive been expecting it for a while, i mean, for the past couple months everytime i have been on the freeway i have wondered what it would be like to drive an extra 5 inches to the right, into the wheels of a big rig or something....
what would it feel like to just drive full speed ahead....crash...the adreniline(sp?)......the rush.....just the experience......maybe even to die? i dont even know.....
dont get me wrong, this was an accident, but somethign about it felt relieving...like when i felt the initial hit and my head smacked the window, something is going to change in my life
starting tonight, something in my life is changing!
im nervous....hell, maybe im over analyzing (i tend to do that a lot) ....maybe i just loose all teh money i have saved and dont get to go to sb.....maybe my dad will finally talk to me after a month......maybe i wont feel the desire to run into trucks on the freeway anymore...i dont know
but it will be interesting to find out.....
love,
jessica
well....duh, of course there is
tonight was my first car accident...
the funny part was that i wasnt even doing anything illegal....and after all the times i changed lanes without signaling, all the speeding, and those few reds that i accidentally ran.....who would have known that my first accident would be caused by cold hands
my hand slipped on the wheel and turned into another car....the only other car on the freaking road! argh.....breath.....ok
i was more concerned with the cost of the damage to my car then anything else....money, or lack there of, is slowly ruining a lot of things in my life.
everyone is ok, and the cars are for the most part ok....
i wasnt scared tho, like....i feel like ive been expecting it for a while, i mean, for the past couple months everytime i have been on the freeway i have wondered what it would be like to drive an extra 5 inches to the right, into the wheels of a big rig or something....
what would it feel like to just drive full speed ahead....crash...the adreniline(sp?)......the rush.....just the experience......maybe even to die? i dont even know.....
dont get me wrong, this was an accident, but somethign about it felt relieving...like when i felt the initial hit and my head smacked the window, something is going to change in my life
starting tonight, something in my life is changing!
im nervous....hell, maybe im over analyzing (i tend to do that a lot) ....maybe i just loose all teh money i have saved and dont get to go to sb.....maybe my dad will finally talk to me after a month......maybe i wont feel the desire to run into trucks on the freeway anymore...i dont know
but it will be interesting to find out.....
love,
jessica