Limbo
My family is currently in limbo. Last Friday, my son came home from daycare with a drippy nose. We decided to get him test for COVID. His test came back negative. Then my daughter and I got sick, but with slightly different symptoms. We got COVID tested yesterday, and are still awaiting results.
We have to inconvenience the people around us. We have our school-pod anxiously awaiting our test results. I can be slightly relieved this past weekend we did not have family dinner, so I do not also have to put my family on notice. All these little things, all this worry, all this guilt, all this risk. I am exhausted from every single piece of it. I keep refreshing my test results page, hoping they will finally tell me if I am safe or not. The only way to really keep my family safe would also be the thing that mentally and emotionally destroys every single one of us in its own specific way.
This current life is the worst and we have at least another twelve months until maybe a glimmer of sunlight, but really - at least another two years before we can maybe breathe a little easier. What a life to be living.
the end.
We have to inconvenience the people around us. We have our school-pod anxiously awaiting our test results. I can be slightly relieved this past weekend we did not have family dinner, so I do not also have to put my family on notice. All these little things, all this worry, all this guilt, all this risk. I am exhausted from every single piece of it. I keep refreshing my test results page, hoping they will finally tell me if I am safe or not. The only way to really keep my family safe would also be the thing that mentally and emotionally destroys every single one of us in its own specific way.
This current life is the worst and we have at least another twelve months until maybe a glimmer of sunlight, but really - at least another two years before we can maybe breathe a little easier. What a life to be living.
the end.