Love
Okay so after my mini meltdown I have to report that Dan and I finally talked last night. After three days of heartbreak hell he tells me that I got it all wrong. Don’t even ask... it’s just pure craziness if you ask me but regardless of the truth in the story I know after all the pain and anger I felt I can’t walk away now, not until I know more. I mean the story works out I guess, it’s just strange cuz he has all the answers, but the bottom line is I want to believe him so I will. I have never felt so broken as I did when I thought I had lost him, yeah it was bad. After all the crazy thoughts, sleepless nights and empty tissue boxes I think I might just love this man. I can’t possibly tell him ... not yet. That my friend would make me his pawn and I am not quite ready for such vulnerability. The only thing that I am sure of is I wanted things back to where they were and I guess I got it, so I am happy ... a twisted kind of happy but happy! I slept through the night last night and I awoke with dry eyes. That’s a great start to a new day! Thanks for the answered prayers.