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Okay so here’s the deal. He is amazing, so amazing that it brings tears to my eyes. Not exactly the tears of joy you might expect, tears of fear for I know that I don’t deserve this. People have warned me, after all of the hearts that I have broken I am bond to get hit hard sooner or later. Oh but please I beg you, let this be real. He makes me weak, he makes me feel sublime. His words are music to my ears, his kisses are therapy to my soul. He is the man I have dreamt of, and while I might have earned a heartache of such magnitude I plead for compassion and pray this is not my pay back. What a cruel heartache this could turn out to be.
Stop... Calm down! I swear I have lost all control of these emotions. It hasn’t been nearly long enough to feel this way, oh trust me I know! Tell a heart that has yearned for such perfection to stop beating in admiration, why don’t you just tell a child to stop growing. I feel as if I might have gotten a head of myself but perhaps this is the feeling I’ve been waiting for, perhaps this is as real as I think it is. Maybe I’m not blinded by the lust, maybe just maybe this is exactly what I swore you should feel if it was real.
I went on a quest to find stories of true love, I surveyed couples who seemed to stand the test of time. They told me they knew right away, never a second thought ... it just felt right. The answer I had hoped for because that was what I was waiting for. I thought I might be asking too much, I thought I was being too picky but they promised me I would feel it if I found it.
Once again, I scream at myself!!! Silly girl... slow down take a breath, don’t allow yourself to be taken over by this emotion. Stand strong and play tough, do not allow your heart to be taken so easily. You are stronger then this, you have the ability to hold onto your heart. Let it go and as they old rule goes, “All is fair in love and war”. Child proceed with great caution because you are at risk of becoming very vulnerable.
So the question remains ... do you let go of all the rules and dive in, let the cards fall where they will and deal with the debt or fortune you might acquire? Or do you play by the book, keep up your guard and take little risk of losing your heart?
Stop... Calm down! I swear I have lost all control of these emotions. It hasn’t been nearly long enough to feel this way, oh trust me I know! Tell a heart that has yearned for such perfection to stop beating in admiration, why don’t you just tell a child to stop growing. I feel as if I might have gotten a head of myself but perhaps this is the feeling I’ve been waiting for, perhaps this is as real as I think it is. Maybe I’m not blinded by the lust, maybe just maybe this is exactly what I swore you should feel if it was real.
I went on a quest to find stories of true love, I surveyed couples who seemed to stand the test of time. They told me they knew right away, never a second thought ... it just felt right. The answer I had hoped for because that was what I was waiting for. I thought I might be asking too much, I thought I was being too picky but they promised me I would feel it if I found it.
Once again, I scream at myself!!! Silly girl... slow down take a breath, don’t allow yourself to be taken over by this emotion. Stand strong and play tough, do not allow your heart to be taken so easily. You are stronger then this, you have the ability to hold onto your heart. Let it go and as they old rule goes, “All is fair in love and war”. Child proceed with great caution because you are at risk of becoming very vulnerable.
So the question remains ... do you let go of all the rules and dive in, let the cards fall where they will and deal with the debt or fortune you might acquire? Or do you play by the book, keep up your guard and take little risk of losing your heart?