goodbye 2004
So here we are..saying goodbye to yet, another year.another amazing year.Life goes by so quick.Its hard to believe its going to be 2005 in 2 days.
I remember, I couldnt wait until I went into middle school.then, I couldnt wait until I went into high school.And then this past summer, I couldnt believe I was gonna be a Junior this fall.Now I have only half of my Junior year of high school left.and then its my SENIOR year.wow.its so unebelieveable to see how far we've all come.
Last night, at my STING party, I realized that I only have 3 travel ball seasons left.and only 2 high school seasons left.and I want to play in college, I just dont know if Im good enough, or if I will be good enough..Ive come to realize that its getting down to the end.And I need to make the best of what I have left of it.I know I will never get any of these experiences back, but I will always remember them.I will never again, get to play with most of these girls again.it makes me sad.I love all the girls Ive EVER played ball with.(especially my STING girls.Im really gonna miss you girls.You all are such amazing ball players and amazing girls.I'll never forget you girls.)..
I am now realizing that I need to be really cherrishing each and every moment I get to experience in High School.Because it will never come again.You only go through high school once.High School has been so much fun thus far. A few bad decisions have been made, but everyone has those.And I now look back on those, and they were so dumb.I can't believe I've done half of the stuff that I really have.I think about all the great friends I have gained though, and Im so lucky to have each one of their friendships.I dont know what Id do without them.although, I think that if I didnt do some of the things I have, I would regret it.And in life, I believe we should have no regrets.You only get one chance to live.what if tomorrow never comes.
I'm really scared about college.Im scared about the SAT's.Im scared about leaving home.I hate change.I dont deal well with change.change for me is one of the worst things ever.especially DRASTIC change, like college.I'm scared I'm not going to get into the college I want to.I'm scared I won't be good enough to play in college.I'm scared I won't do good on the SAT's.I'm scared about my future.Will I have a good job in life.A good husband?A family?Will both of my parents live to see me graduate.See me succeed in life.See my family I hope to have one day.Will they be at my wedding?It scares me.My parents are older than most of my friends parents, and I'm just scared that they won't be around for too long.
I think back to who I was one year ago from this date.and its interesting to see that I was different.I was into the party scene, getting drunk, and not having a care in the world.I mean, heck, I was only a sophomore.I figured I had plenty of time.But now, now is when I'm realizing, time is running out.I'm not into partying anymore.or drinking.it was all so dumb.it was something I did, because everyone else did.I have been lucky to not have gotten alcohol poisoning before, or anything.or have been raped while so drunk I wouldnt remember, or care.I am so lucky.I always think about the WHAT IF's?
Although, one thing hasnt changed much.I am still IN LOVE with HIM.everything about him makes me happy.I love who he is.and I love who I am when I'm around him.But at this time last year, we werent talking.its hard to believe that we went from not talking, to being such good and close friends.I like it alot better this year.
Now, I also have a job.I am thinking more about colleges, and my future.my grades.and what my future holds for me.What God has in store for me.Im anxious.And I am ready to bring on the challenges.I know I will have many.and I am ready.or I will be.
I'm going to be 17 in march.I have been in the world for almost 17 years.I hope I have ATLEAST 5 times more than that left ahead of me.I can't imagine what my life would be like with any other parents/people.
I am so thankful to have the parents I do.They love and care for me.THEY adopted ME.they WANTED me.I just cannot wait until I am 18 years of age.I will FINALLY get to meet my birth parents.the people who brought me into this world.The people that wanted me to have a better life than what they could provide for me.I think about them all the time.I just have 1 year and 2 months left.I have been counting down ever since I was 14.if not earlier.
I have experienced alot this year.I turned 16, and got my license.I experienced playing club volleyball.I passed my sophomore year of high school.I went to Mexico and California.I got to go to NYE and have one of the most life changing experiences ever.I got to enter my Junior year of high school.I have gained new and amazing friends.I have let go of a chapter in my life, that was unneccesary, but maybe it was, to put me where I am today.It helped guide me on the right path.I had to say goodbye to all my friends who went away to college.I got to take a roadtrip to Alabama with Whitney.I had to say goodbye to one of my best friends, Whitney.I became alot closer with one of my other best friends, Adrian.I experienced Adrian leaving WP and going to orangewood.I got a job.I opened my own bank account.I experienced 3 hurricanes.I became closer with so many of my friends.and I got the guts to express my love for Jobie.And now, here I am..saying goodbye to 2004.and everything it brought me.although, everything it brought me, I will never forget.i've really changed and realized alot this year.
I've just really realized, especially lately, that I dont have forever.none of us do.We have to live life day by day.we cant have regrets.we cant think about, WHAT IF?, we cant look into the future.we have to live life for what it is now.nothing more.nothing less.You have to worry about tomorrow, when it comes.
I miss volleyball.and all my volleyball girls.it will always be a part of who I am.what my coaches taught me, what my teamates taught me, and what I learned about myself through this experience.
So with the end of this year, it closes another chapter in my life, yet opens another chapter.I am very much anticipating what this year, 2005 has to bring me.Hopefully, new friends and new experiences.
Thank you to everyone who was a part of my 2004 year.I dont know what Id do without you.And I cant wait to experience 2005 with everyone.I LOVE YOU
Have a safe, fun and happy new year!!!!
XOXOXO
Kathryn
I remember, I couldnt wait until I went into middle school.then, I couldnt wait until I went into high school.And then this past summer, I couldnt believe I was gonna be a Junior this fall.Now I have only half of my Junior year of high school left.and then its my SENIOR year.wow.its so unebelieveable to see how far we've all come.
Last night, at my STING party, I realized that I only have 3 travel ball seasons left.and only 2 high school seasons left.and I want to play in college, I just dont know if Im good enough, or if I will be good enough..Ive come to realize that its getting down to the end.And I need to make the best of what I have left of it.I know I will never get any of these experiences back, but I will always remember them.I will never again, get to play with most of these girls again.it makes me sad.I love all the girls Ive EVER played ball with.(especially my STING girls.Im really gonna miss you girls.You all are such amazing ball players and amazing girls.I'll never forget you girls.)..
I am now realizing that I need to be really cherrishing each and every moment I get to experience in High School.Because it will never come again.You only go through high school once.High School has been so much fun thus far. A few bad decisions have been made, but everyone has those.And I now look back on those, and they were so dumb.I can't believe I've done half of the stuff that I really have.I think about all the great friends I have gained though, and Im so lucky to have each one of their friendships.I dont know what Id do without them.although, I think that if I didnt do some of the things I have, I would regret it.And in life, I believe we should have no regrets.You only get one chance to live.what if tomorrow never comes.
I'm really scared about college.Im scared about the SAT's.Im scared about leaving home.I hate change.I dont deal well with change.change for me is one of the worst things ever.especially DRASTIC change, like college.I'm scared I'm not going to get into the college I want to.I'm scared I won't be good enough to play in college.I'm scared I won't do good on the SAT's.I'm scared about my future.Will I have a good job in life.A good husband?A family?Will both of my parents live to see me graduate.See me succeed in life.See my family I hope to have one day.Will they be at my wedding?It scares me.My parents are older than most of my friends parents, and I'm just scared that they won't be around for too long.
I think back to who I was one year ago from this date.and its interesting to see that I was different.I was into the party scene, getting drunk, and not having a care in the world.I mean, heck, I was only a sophomore.I figured I had plenty of time.But now, now is when I'm realizing, time is running out.I'm not into partying anymore.or drinking.it was all so dumb.it was something I did, because everyone else did.I have been lucky to not have gotten alcohol poisoning before, or anything.or have been raped while so drunk I wouldnt remember, or care.I am so lucky.I always think about the WHAT IF's?
Although, one thing hasnt changed much.I am still IN LOVE with HIM.everything about him makes me happy.I love who he is.and I love who I am when I'm around him.But at this time last year, we werent talking.its hard to believe that we went from not talking, to being such good and close friends.I like it alot better this year.
Now, I also have a job.I am thinking more about colleges, and my future.my grades.and what my future holds for me.What God has in store for me.Im anxious.And I am ready to bring on the challenges.I know I will have many.and I am ready.or I will be.
I'm going to be 17 in march.I have been in the world for almost 17 years.I hope I have ATLEAST 5 times more than that left ahead of me.I can't imagine what my life would be like with any other parents/people.
I am so thankful to have the parents I do.They love and care for me.THEY adopted ME.they WANTED me.I just cannot wait until I am 18 years of age.I will FINALLY get to meet my birth parents.the people who brought me into this world.The people that wanted me to have a better life than what they could provide for me.I think about them all the time.I just have 1 year and 2 months left.I have been counting down ever since I was 14.if not earlier.
I have experienced alot this year.I turned 16, and got my license.I experienced playing club volleyball.I passed my sophomore year of high school.I went to Mexico and California.I got to go to NYE and have one of the most life changing experiences ever.I got to enter my Junior year of high school.I have gained new and amazing friends.I have let go of a chapter in my life, that was unneccesary, but maybe it was, to put me where I am today.It helped guide me on the right path.I had to say goodbye to all my friends who went away to college.I got to take a roadtrip to Alabama with Whitney.I had to say goodbye to one of my best friends, Whitney.I became alot closer with one of my other best friends, Adrian.I experienced Adrian leaving WP and going to orangewood.I got a job.I opened my own bank account.I experienced 3 hurricanes.I became closer with so many of my friends.and I got the guts to express my love for Jobie.And now, here I am..saying goodbye to 2004.and everything it brought me.although, everything it brought me, I will never forget.i've really changed and realized alot this year.
I've just really realized, especially lately, that I dont have forever.none of us do.We have to live life day by day.we cant have regrets.we cant think about, WHAT IF?, we cant look into the future.we have to live life for what it is now.nothing more.nothing less.You have to worry about tomorrow, when it comes.
I miss volleyball.and all my volleyball girls.it will always be a part of who I am.what my coaches taught me, what my teamates taught me, and what I learned about myself through this experience.
So with the end of this year, it closes another chapter in my life, yet opens another chapter.I am very much anticipating what this year, 2005 has to bring me.Hopefully, new friends and new experiences.
Thank you to everyone who was a part of my 2004 year.I dont know what Id do without you.And I cant wait to experience 2005 with everyone.I LOVE YOU
Have a safe, fun and happy new year!!!!
XOXOXO
Kathryn