i'm changed

[stargirl08]

So this year so fat-2006-has been full of alot of change. I lost a best friend I thought I could never lose. And I lost her over a boy. Definitely something I never thought would happen. I've met the most perfect boy for me. And 6 months is right around the corner. 6 SOLID months together. all day, every day. I wouldn't have it any other way. Graduation. One big party, and lots of fun. Glad to be done with high school and all the petty drama. Got a laptop and iPod. Lots of graduation money and gifts. Mexico/California for the 3rd consecutive summer. It was amazing as usual. Summer and jacksonville with Justin. Hanging out with Mike, Matt and Xavier alot. Moving Justin in. Attending the Southern Region Youth Event at Elon University in Elon, North Carolina. Learning about sex and relationships and dating through the church. Metting new friends who will be friends for life. Becoming closer with older friends. Seeing what I won't be missing out on. Being happy that I know I will be happy at UNF. Knowing that GOD made the right decision for me. Missing old friends. Missing high school somewhat, and I'm not quite sure why. Gained new perspective on sex and relationships. Gained new perspective on what it is to be in a loving and healthy relationship. Gained other peoples opinions and perspectives. You have to love yourself first and foremost before you can love someone else. Knowing I did the right thing. Knowing I'm with the right and most perfect person in the world for me. I wouldn't trade him for the world. He IS my world. Thought alot about past relationships and experiences with people. Cried many nights about it, yet laughed at it as well. One regret is in there as well. Thought about what would have been. What if GOD hadn't brought me to him. Where would I be today? Still stuck with that loser. I believe that GOD has it in the stars for us. I believe that GOD is the only one who knows what is right for me and will guide me to the right people/situations. I have complete faith in GOD that he will do so. I love worship music. I love being UCC, and I wouldn't trade it for anything in the entire world. I wish everyone looked at the world as we did. I wish everyone thought about accepting EVERYONE as we do. I wish people just gave others a chance. I can't wait to come back and counsel/chaparone these trips/retreats. I'm sure gonna miss being a camper/participant at them. Prayer is one of the most relaxing things ever. Just being relaxed and open to GOD and what he has to say. Believing in GOD. Having faith. Hoping you will be lead in the right direction. Knowing you have found companionship. Enjoying the other persons attributes whethere your lover/partner be a man or woman. I am completely PRO for Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual and Transgender rights. I believe that marriage is LOVE not sexual orientation and doesn't have to be shared just between a man and a woman. It takes someone special to accept all. I hope you one day are that person, as I am. Stand up for what you believe in, even if you're standing alone. Jacksonville, Justin, St. Petersburg, Whitney, Chellsi, Joel, and Charlie=this week. Orientation on the 6th. Change. Acceptance. Exciting.
Go in peace.
Open your heart.
Kathryn