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"I'm not going to waste this time. This light that burns will keep on fading. I'm holding tight so I can feel the light....I'm sitting under falling stars....Do you miss me where you are? I'm making plans to be with you, but have they come unglued, what am I to do...without you...without you...without you...without you...The nights are getting warm again, they let you go, I let you in. Everything you're saying sounds right tonite. The waves are crashing on and on running even if we are wrong. There's forces driving me to test the speed of light..." -MAE
I decided that I needed to write about a few things. So craziness is really all I have to say. I am about to be done with my Junior year of college in a little over a month. I am suppose to be interning this summer, but yea finding that internship is not very easy. On top of the fact that I don't even think that I want to do Interior Design. I really want to be an event planner. I have the organization skills, the love of details, and clearly I deal with stress well because I have made it through three years of school without doing anything too drastic.
Overall, this semester is going pretty well though. I think my depression is back, but no real surprise. I think I have been some sort of depressed ever since the first day of freshman year. Just all of the pressure and stress building up brings out the depression in me. On top of everything that I went through at the end of last semester(the girls moving out and screwing me over, totalling my car, and a lot more), I have realized that my friends are what I really need in my life.
I have had a few really great nights lately. The weekend before St. Patrick's day me and a group of friends ended up at a party across the street and it was just a really great time. And I got to meet Adam. Then St. Patrick's Day went to Randy and Josh's party and although everyone that I came with peaced out pretty soon after we got there I got to hang out with Josh, Chewy, Greg, Kevin, and Adam. I also got to meet a lot of new people.
I haven't had a crush in about two and half years. I have to say that it is a weird feeling, but at the same time it is great. I have learned so much in the past about myself and how I act toward guys. I now know that I just need to relax and let things happen the way that they are suppose to. Although I have thought a lot about this new crush, I also am very ok with the fact that things are going like they are.
"Am I alone in this, never a night where I can sleep myself til day. We must try to figure it out, to figure it out. It won't be that easy. We lost it somehow. You come over unannounced. Silence broken by your voice in the dark..." -MAE(I heart them)
I decided that I needed to write about a few things. So craziness is really all I have to say. I am about to be done with my Junior year of college in a little over a month. I am suppose to be interning this summer, but yea finding that internship is not very easy. On top of the fact that I don't even think that I want to do Interior Design. I really want to be an event planner. I have the organization skills, the love of details, and clearly I deal with stress well because I have made it through three years of school without doing anything too drastic.
Overall, this semester is going pretty well though. I think my depression is back, but no real surprise. I think I have been some sort of depressed ever since the first day of freshman year. Just all of the pressure and stress building up brings out the depression in me. On top of everything that I went through at the end of last semester(the girls moving out and screwing me over, totalling my car, and a lot more), I have realized that my friends are what I really need in my life.
I have had a few really great nights lately. The weekend before St. Patrick's day me and a group of friends ended up at a party across the street and it was just a really great time. And I got to meet Adam. Then St. Patrick's Day went to Randy and Josh's party and although everyone that I came with peaced out pretty soon after we got there I got to hang out with Josh, Chewy, Greg, Kevin, and Adam. I also got to meet a lot of new people.
I haven't had a crush in about two and half years. I have to say that it is a weird feeling, but at the same time it is great. I have learned so much in the past about myself and how I act toward guys. I now know that I just need to relax and let things happen the way that they are suppose to. Although I have thought a lot about this new crush, I also am very ok with the fact that things are going like they are.
"Am I alone in this, never a night where I can sleep myself til day. We must try to figure it out, to figure it out. It won't be that easy. We lost it somehow. You come over unannounced. Silence broken by your voice in the dark..." -MAE(I heart them)