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[stargazer_baby]

i feel very scattered lately
also i don't feel like i'm getting anything out of what i'm doing
my relationship has become comfortable
and i'm uncertain how i feel about this
i feel exasperated

i feel spread to thin
but really i have nothing to be worried about
in the sense that i'm still unemployed
but for some reason i'm more stressed then
if i had a job.
i just feel like i'm waiting around all day
for the day to end
or for mike to come home.
and that is really annoying
i think in some ways i am pushing my negativity
onto my relationship
instead of just feeling like it is a relief from other things
i just try to be negative
and pick out and at everything that general i would just not even notice
i really just need something else
like a job or school.