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I had plans for a slumber party with Nick, but that's not happening. I'm in a weird mood. I dunno. I want to do something fun and enjoy this weather, but...I dunno. I'm in a weird place mentally, which I fully blame on being trapped in a building with no windows all day long. I've been here for 8 hours...with no human interaction.
I ordered some perfume from Black Phoenix Alchemy Lab (I got Dee and The Caterpillar). I still don't know what happened to the bottle of Lust I bought. I'm pretty upset about losing it...I have NO IDEA what could've happened to it.
I'm in desperate need of some winter clothes. I'm going to go to Old Navy tomorrow and get some basics (in black, of course...sadly). I need some slimmer-cut jeans, too. My jeans are too wide-legged and they make me feel kind of Home-Depot-Dyke-looking. I'd like some dirty-gray ones...I love that color for jeans. I hope Old Navy has some. They're cheap and they are having sales right now, so maybe I'll get lucky. But I need some sweaters and tee-shirts like CRAZY.
I've rediscovered my low-top Dr. Martin boots and I'm in love all over again. I loved these 8 years ago...and they're still making me really happy. It feels good to be able to wear something that you used to love years ago...even if it's just shoes.
I kind of hate these jeans.
I've been drinking WAY less and smoking WAY less. I didn't drink anything all week until last night and I only had 4 beers total. It feels good to draw a line and make better choices.
I'm growing my hair out, I think. The long side, atleast. The short side is still amazing, and I'll probably shave it again one or two more times. The long side is really looking amazing as it grows out.
I dunno. I sort of wanna let my hair grow out completely. I haven't had long hair since freshman year of high school. I really wonder what it's like now. Now that I know how to handle it and take care of it.
And would it fit me to have long hair?
...
I've paid my bills...for the most part. It feels good to do that.
This time of year always leaves me wishing for routine and a normal schedule. I'm tired of this schedule of working afternoons and nights and weekends...and never getting to do anything. I don't like getting off so late...it ultimately leads to my not getting to bed until midnight or (usually, most often) later. The reason I have such a whack sleeping schedule is because of my work and school schedule. I'm over it and I'm ready to have a "normal" routine.
I finish school next May or June. At that point, I'll probably continue working at Bright House for a few more months until I get everything in order concernting my license and finding a job that pays well/has benefits. I mean, I'll be having some shitty pay for a while..and as long as I expect and accept that as my future for a while, it'll be easier for me to handle it and deal with it without being all upset and frustrated. Being prepared is always my main defense with everything. If I know what's coming, I'll be able to handle it much, much better and my mind won't be in freak-out mode.
I want to leave. I want to go home.
I ordered some perfume from Black Phoenix Alchemy Lab (I got Dee and The Caterpillar). I still don't know what happened to the bottle of Lust I bought. I'm pretty upset about losing it...I have NO IDEA what could've happened to it.
I'm in desperate need of some winter clothes. I'm going to go to Old Navy tomorrow and get some basics (in black, of course...sadly). I need some slimmer-cut jeans, too. My jeans are too wide-legged and they make me feel kind of Home-Depot-Dyke-looking. I'd like some dirty-gray ones...I love that color for jeans. I hope Old Navy has some. They're cheap and they are having sales right now, so maybe I'll get lucky. But I need some sweaters and tee-shirts like CRAZY.
I've rediscovered my low-top Dr. Martin boots and I'm in love all over again. I loved these 8 years ago...and they're still making me really happy. It feels good to be able to wear something that you used to love years ago...even if it's just shoes.
I kind of hate these jeans.
I've been drinking WAY less and smoking WAY less. I didn't drink anything all week until last night and I only had 4 beers total. It feels good to draw a line and make better choices.
I'm growing my hair out, I think. The long side, atleast. The short side is still amazing, and I'll probably shave it again one or two more times. The long side is really looking amazing as it grows out.
I dunno. I sort of wanna let my hair grow out completely. I haven't had long hair since freshman year of high school. I really wonder what it's like now. Now that I know how to handle it and take care of it.
And would it fit me to have long hair?
...
I've paid my bills...for the most part. It feels good to do that.
This time of year always leaves me wishing for routine and a normal schedule. I'm tired of this schedule of working afternoons and nights and weekends...and never getting to do anything. I don't like getting off so late...it ultimately leads to my not getting to bed until midnight or (usually, most often) later. The reason I have such a whack sleeping schedule is because of my work and school schedule. I'm over it and I'm ready to have a "normal" routine.
I finish school next May or June. At that point, I'll probably continue working at Bright House for a few more months until I get everything in order concernting my license and finding a job that pays well/has benefits. I mean, I'll be having some shitty pay for a while..and as long as I expect and accept that as my future for a while, it'll be easier for me to handle it and deal with it without being all upset and frustrated. Being prepared is always my main defense with everything. If I know what's coming, I'll be able to handle it much, much better and my mind won't be in freak-out mode.
I want to leave. I want to go home.