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yeah.
It's 4am. I'm still up. I had an exhausting day and I've also had a few PBR's. I'm not ready to go to sleep, though I'm about to try and make it happen.
I'm annoyed with my aunt. She keeps pushing religion on me...and she keeps trying to make me feel like I'm not able to comprehend things that occurred before I was born, which is so infuriating that it makes me actually lash out in a hateful string of words that I don't even regret because I feel that if she didn't hear them, she'd never realize how fucked up her way of approaching people and subjects really is.
Here's the thing.
She's my dad's oldest sister (of 6 siblings all together) and she wasn't really there while they were all growing up. She got married and had a baby (after I was born...and I have to assume she wanted a baby after she saw me...and she saw how lovely and perfect I was. I wasn't a fussy baby and I was very pleasant and happy.) So her daughter is a spoiled ass brat who basically does what she wants and is a total bitch. My aunt at some point realized she was gay.
She had already divorced her husband....but anyway, she was a prison guard for most of her life, and still is...though now she lives in Alabama again, whereas before, she was living in Arizona, away from the rest of the family.
She moves back and tries to take over as the Alpha Sibling and tries to make everyone else think that she's the know-all being and she's got her shit straight.
She's now a hardcore Christian (the variety that shoves their beliefs down your throat and tries to guilt you into believing what she's believing, even thought it's total bullshit that's highly illogical.) Add to this that she's gay as shit and I LOVE GAY PEOPLE!! I HAVE A TON OF GAY FRIENDS! She believes in a supports this religion that openly damns her "kind" as being doomed for hell. Yet she still pushes God in my face. She sends me messages about God on Facebook. She left me something along the lines of, "If you want a job, then you need to pray about it. Then you'll get what you want."
Yes. Because God is just sitting around bored and wondering if anyone is needing a job. Because it's not like TONS OF AMERICANS are praying for a job...and still sitting at home worrying over their bills. Fuck that.
She sent me a quiz to see what religion I'm cut out for...I got Humanism. She commented, "I still love you."
Yeah, because I'd really be upset if you decided I wasn't worth loving based on my belief that all humans are equal and deserve equal treatment despite our differences.
Yeah. How silly of me.
She sends me quizes to see HOW ALABAMA ARE YOU!?!?!?!?
I take the quiz and it tells me I'm a Yankee. Yeah. I've been living in Alabama since I was three. I'm not at all a Yankee, but that quiz is based on if you loved sweet tea and football.
Which I don't. I hate them both.
And I'm sure she'll have another "I still love you" to say.
I'm so fed up with her condescending attitude and disinterest in being open and accepting of all walks of life (I mean, HELLO, YOU'RE FUCKING GAY AND YOU HAVE A DAUGHTER AND YOU AT ONE TIME REFUSED TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH CHURCH AND NOW YOU FUCKING SHOVING GOD DOWN EVERYONE'S THROAT AS IF YOU'RE SO FUCKING ENLIGHTENED).
I don't like being pushed about. I don't like beliefs shoved in my face. I don't like stigmas. I don't like assumptions. I like for people to be open and willing to accept and learn from all those around them. I don't want people to look down on others and judge others. What right do they have? What right do any of us have to look down and judge others?
Just, take a fucking look at yourself and ask yourself if you're being the person you truly want to be..and if that person is acting in a way that most would consider good and understanding.
We're all humans on this earth and no one has all answers. Don't try to act like you've got some amazing information that everyone else is oblivious to...because you don't. None of us know what's going to happen. None of us know what we're here for. None of us know the point. But if we're smart, we can take this time on earth and explore our surroundings and listen to those around us and learn as much as we can. If you're open and understanding and forgiving, you'll be a much better person in the end...rather than a judgmental belief-pusher who stands firm, never learning more about others, never questioning life and finding interesting answers...no matter if they are right or wrong. No one knows if they are right or wrong, so why not explore all the options and realize that LIFE IS MADE FOR LIVING. NOT FEELING GUILT OVER. NOT FOR JUDGING OTHERS.
There's that. I had to rant. Agree or not, I don't give a shit.
It's 4am. I'm still up. I had an exhausting day and I've also had a few PBR's. I'm not ready to go to sleep, though I'm about to try and make it happen.
I'm annoyed with my aunt. She keeps pushing religion on me...and she keeps trying to make me feel like I'm not able to comprehend things that occurred before I was born, which is so infuriating that it makes me actually lash out in a hateful string of words that I don't even regret because I feel that if she didn't hear them, she'd never realize how fucked up her way of approaching people and subjects really is.
Here's the thing.
She's my dad's oldest sister (of 6 siblings all together) and she wasn't really there while they were all growing up. She got married and had a baby (after I was born...and I have to assume she wanted a baby after she saw me...and she saw how lovely and perfect I was. I wasn't a fussy baby and I was very pleasant and happy.) So her daughter is a spoiled ass brat who basically does what she wants and is a total bitch. My aunt at some point realized she was gay.
She had already divorced her husband....but anyway, she was a prison guard for most of her life, and still is...though now she lives in Alabama again, whereas before, she was living in Arizona, away from the rest of the family.
She moves back and tries to take over as the Alpha Sibling and tries to make everyone else think that she's the know-all being and she's got her shit straight.
She's now a hardcore Christian (the variety that shoves their beliefs down your throat and tries to guilt you into believing what she's believing, even thought it's total bullshit that's highly illogical.) Add to this that she's gay as shit and I LOVE GAY PEOPLE!! I HAVE A TON OF GAY FRIENDS! She believes in a supports this religion that openly damns her "kind" as being doomed for hell. Yet she still pushes God in my face. She sends me messages about God on Facebook. She left me something along the lines of, "If you want a job, then you need to pray about it. Then you'll get what you want."
Yes. Because God is just sitting around bored and wondering if anyone is needing a job. Because it's not like TONS OF AMERICANS are praying for a job...and still sitting at home worrying over their bills. Fuck that.
She sent me a quiz to see what religion I'm cut out for...I got Humanism. She commented, "I still love you."
Yeah, because I'd really be upset if you decided I wasn't worth loving based on my belief that all humans are equal and deserve equal treatment despite our differences.
Yeah. How silly of me.
She sends me quizes to see HOW ALABAMA ARE YOU!?!?!?!?
I take the quiz and it tells me I'm a Yankee. Yeah. I've been living in Alabama since I was three. I'm not at all a Yankee, but that quiz is based on if you loved sweet tea and football.
Which I don't. I hate them both.
And I'm sure she'll have another "I still love you" to say.
I'm so fed up with her condescending attitude and disinterest in being open and accepting of all walks of life (I mean, HELLO, YOU'RE FUCKING GAY AND YOU HAVE A DAUGHTER AND YOU AT ONE TIME REFUSED TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH CHURCH AND NOW YOU FUCKING SHOVING GOD DOWN EVERYONE'S THROAT AS IF YOU'RE SO FUCKING ENLIGHTENED).
I don't like being pushed about. I don't like beliefs shoved in my face. I don't like stigmas. I don't like assumptions. I like for people to be open and willing to accept and learn from all those around them. I don't want people to look down on others and judge others. What right do they have? What right do any of us have to look down and judge others?
Just, take a fucking look at yourself and ask yourself if you're being the person you truly want to be..and if that person is acting in a way that most would consider good and understanding.
We're all humans on this earth and no one has all answers. Don't try to act like you've got some amazing information that everyone else is oblivious to...because you don't. None of us know what's going to happen. None of us know what we're here for. None of us know the point. But if we're smart, we can take this time on earth and explore our surroundings and listen to those around us and learn as much as we can. If you're open and understanding and forgiving, you'll be a much better person in the end...rather than a judgmental belief-pusher who stands firm, never learning more about others, never questioning life and finding interesting answers...no matter if they are right or wrong. No one knows if they are right or wrong, so why not explore all the options and realize that LIFE IS MADE FOR LIVING. NOT FEELING GUILT OVER. NOT FOR JUDGING OTHERS.
There's that. I had to rant. Agree or not, I don't give a shit.