Nuggle
I'm at work right now (RMU help desk) and I have 46 minutes to go as I start to type this. I haven't updated in a while because I have been so damn busy trying to figure out my life. But now for some reason, I feel a strong sense of urgency to start maintaining this LJ again. I am actually going to share it with the public (i.e. my friends/colleagues). I wasn't going to originally, but what the hell. I put so much time and effort into changing the layout and whatnot...I want to share it with the world! :-)
Things are going well. I started to second guess myself in my personal realms, but I now realize that I shouldn't. Everything is happening the way it is for a reason and I don't always have to know what that exact reason is. I am happy though. MOST of the time. When I am not letting my thoughts win the inner mental battle that I am constantly waging with myself. Yes, I know that I am writing fragment sentences, but that is how I think...in fragments. My mind constantly wanders and I am always jumping from one thought to another and then back again. I sometimes feel that I am content going on like this. What if I thought in a steady way? One thought until its resolved and then move on to the next...I don't think that I could handle life like that. I would go insane. I am already halfway there though ;-) But the joys of being sane include being a little crazy.
I am content with the boy right now.
I fell in love with an artist. His work is so simple yet it hits home.
I realized that I have five more weeks until I have to give notice to my landlord about me moving out at the end of my lease. I am so proud of myself for not procrastinating this time. I actually have a general idea of where I want to move when my lease is up. NOW I just have to decide between three places. I like them all, I just need to weigh the pros and cons of each.
Well now that I am on the phone with the boy, my attention is being diverted. I must go.
Things are going well. I started to second guess myself in my personal realms, but I now realize that I shouldn't. Everything is happening the way it is for a reason and I don't always have to know what that exact reason is. I am happy though. MOST of the time. When I am not letting my thoughts win the inner mental battle that I am constantly waging with myself. Yes, I know that I am writing fragment sentences, but that is how I think...in fragments. My mind constantly wanders and I am always jumping from one thought to another and then back again. I sometimes feel that I am content going on like this. What if I thought in a steady way? One thought until its resolved and then move on to the next...I don't think that I could handle life like that. I would go insane. I am already halfway there though ;-) But the joys of being sane include being a little crazy.
I am content with the boy right now.
I fell in love with an artist. His work is so simple yet it hits home.
I realized that I have five more weeks until I have to give notice to my landlord about me moving out at the end of my lease. I am so proud of myself for not procrastinating this time. I actually have a general idea of where I want to move when my lease is up. NOW I just have to decide between three places. I like them all, I just need to weigh the pros and cons of each.
Well now that I am on the phone with the boy, my attention is being diverted. I must go.