What's new pussy cat
Someday I will get out of here. I was looking at apartments again today down in Virginia. Rent is soaring up. That's no good. My mom is even trying to convince me to buy a house. But if I did that I would have to stay here even longer just to get a stinking down payment on a house. That doesn't really work for me. And I have been sitting here wondering how long my heart is willing to wait for Deki. It's been 9 weeks since I heard from him last. I found out the other day that their email is back to working because Jason called Emily and said he got his emails finally. So that means Deki got his too... and it's been about a week since their internet got up and running and still I have not heard a single word from him. I haven't even gotten the post card he promised to send me. So what am I supposed to do? I can't help it... I love him. I love him to death but it's just not fair. He says he cares but what does this show me? It shows me he can't be bothered to let me know how he is doing. Then there is friggin Corey who is just freaking me out with how intense he gets. He sits and messages me and always wants to know when I am coming over... I just don't want this to go on anymorw so I back off and now he is all pissed. Well whatever. I told him from the beginning I wasn't interested. So now it's back down to hanging out with my brother and when I am not there I am at home. It's going to be a long winter.