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Yay for finally having some time to sit down and write. Been crazy the last couple days. Some good things, some not so good things. We will start with the good because that is easier to talk about and doesn't need a whole lot of thinking. The not so good needs some working out. So I have a boyfriend... officially. His name is Steve. But don't worry, it's not the old Steve. It's a new one and I go to school with him. He is very great. I am bringing him to meet Gram tomorrow. Should be good. Along with that, I am also going out to lunch with my father. He is in the area and maybe I will bring Steve to meet him too. Not sure how the Me/Steve thing is going to work out, but I like him and it can't hurt to see where things take us.
Ok, now to the thing I need to try and figure out. So Joe out of the blue posts something really crazy. And now its like he wants very little to do with me. I am not quite sure what the hell happened. I was over at his house on Thursday like usual. We had somewhat of a usual conversation. I gave him a hug good bye and said that I would talk to him later and when I get to school I check livejournal and he has written this long thing and at the bottom says that he really doesn't feel comfortable like I said and whatnot. Like HELLO!? What the hell? Where did that all come from? And now its like... ok I am not sure what to do or say. Should I let it be and just go on my way? Or am I supposed to try and do something? Who knows. I have no idea... no clue. Nothing. I responded saying that I would do as he wished and not talk to him... but then he came back and said that we should probably talk. Like... its so confusing when it was really very simple to me before. Our relationship wasn't complicated. It was just... there. Someone I could talk with, someone I could joke with. My hot chocolate buddy. My Tuesday/Thursday friend. I guess we shouldnt have hung out together so much. Who knows. I sure as hell don't. All this stupid drama. I could say a lot more but frankly, its something I will have to share between Joe and me personally because somethings aren't meant for everyone to hear. Maybe I will get that chance to say what I want. Guess I will find out Tuesday.
Ok, now to the thing I need to try and figure out. So Joe out of the blue posts something really crazy. And now its like he wants very little to do with me. I am not quite sure what the hell happened. I was over at his house on Thursday like usual. We had somewhat of a usual conversation. I gave him a hug good bye and said that I would talk to him later and when I get to school I check livejournal and he has written this long thing and at the bottom says that he really doesn't feel comfortable like I said and whatnot. Like HELLO!? What the hell? Where did that all come from? And now its like... ok I am not sure what to do or say. Should I let it be and just go on my way? Or am I supposed to try and do something? Who knows. I have no idea... no clue. Nothing. I responded saying that I would do as he wished and not talk to him... but then he came back and said that we should probably talk. Like... its so confusing when it was really very simple to me before. Our relationship wasn't complicated. It was just... there. Someone I could talk with, someone I could joke with. My hot chocolate buddy. My Tuesday/Thursday friend. I guess we shouldnt have hung out together so much. Who knows. I sure as hell don't. All this stupid drama. I could say a lot more but frankly, its something I will have to share between Joe and me personally because somethings aren't meant for everyone to hear. Maybe I will get that chance to say what I want. Guess I will find out Tuesday.