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I have been trying to contemplate why I no longer seem to feel that occasional urge, that itchy, annoying, sensation in the back of my brain that used to be so overwhelmingly compelling, to sit down at the computer and blog on live journal. Is it a good thing or a bad thing? Am I locking all my feelings away because this summer has been such an emotional gravitron (I hate those things)? Am I simply too busy? Have I finally outgrown those subconsiously attention seeking entries, in which my hot-headed rants were derived more from habit than actual reflection and expression. Or perhaps I spontaneously reached spiritual enlightenment via my lj, making those entries about "what a long hard rode its been" become superfluous. Ok, forget the last one.
I have on several occasions sat at my computer with that "Post an Entry" screen lit, periodically moving the mouse so the screen saver stops turning on.
I have had a good summer. I went to camp, made new friends, rode some horses, made some money. It wasnt that busy really. I have been riding Moca a lot, we went to a show and I fell off, but we ended up doing great anyway, I am in love with her more and more all the time. My snake died, I miss her a lot, she was really sweet (yes "sweet". you would understand if you knew her). There is a sad kind of irony that all my pets seemed conveniently die off right before I leave so that my parents werent stuck with taking care of them, so um, thanks for that Slim. Oh, and I broke up with Dan.
Geez, is that all I can manage? Two years on lj and I cant even manage a "happiness is so subjective" speech?! I dont even feel like talking about my shitty room selection issues, or college at all for that matter!
.... I think I am just done. 18 years have served me well, and now is no time to look back and scrutinize. Considering whats ahead, it all seems a little foolish. Time to move on. I am so fucking ready, and there is nothing else to be said.
I have on several occasions sat at my computer with that "Post an Entry" screen lit, periodically moving the mouse so the screen saver stops turning on.
I have had a good summer. I went to camp, made new friends, rode some horses, made some money. It wasnt that busy really. I have been riding Moca a lot, we went to a show and I fell off, but we ended up doing great anyway, I am in love with her more and more all the time. My snake died, I miss her a lot, she was really sweet (yes "sweet". you would understand if you knew her). There is a sad kind of irony that all my pets seemed conveniently die off right before I leave so that my parents werent stuck with taking care of them, so um, thanks for that Slim. Oh, and I broke up with Dan.
Geez, is that all I can manage? Two years on lj and I cant even manage a "happiness is so subjective" speech?! I dont even feel like talking about my shitty room selection issues, or college at all for that matter!
.... I think I am just done. 18 years have served me well, and now is no time to look back and scrutinize. Considering whats ahead, it all seems a little foolish. Time to move on. I am so fucking ready, and there is nothing else to be said.