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I am writing this in relation to Dan's entry, I thought it was a good discussion and I wanted to share my experience.
BCC is a great school, I am so glad that is where I spent highschool, but starting around second quarter, I have started loathing every minute of it. I hate getting up early like I never have before, even when I am not tired, and since I have been so involved in college I feel completely disconnected from HS. Why should I work my ass off for something that is already pretty much finished. It doesnt seem important anymore in comparison to what is happening next year. All I am probably going to remember senior year is that I was getting ready for college. Its making everything so much harder. For example, right now I am supposed to be working on my IB math studies internal assessment that was due today that I havent started. All I can think about is, does this really make any difference in what is going to happen next year? Before, it always mattered, and I even had senioritis back then. Now the senioritis is being fed by the fact that I have this reluctance to do any work because I desperately want to be able to not care. Unfortunately I do have to care, which sucks.
I also (agree with Dan) that I really worry about the fact that summer is so short and I wont be able to rebound quick enough. The prospect of taking a year off to make some money, re coop, and take a breath is very tempting. What is not tempting is the fact that I probably wont remember most of what I learned senior year, when I get to freshman year.
Thanks for the great topic-for-reflection Dan.
PS- My Sweeney Todd audition is tomorrow, send over some good vibes!
BCC is a great school, I am so glad that is where I spent highschool, but starting around second quarter, I have started loathing every minute of it. I hate getting up early like I never have before, even when I am not tired, and since I have been so involved in college I feel completely disconnected from HS. Why should I work my ass off for something that is already pretty much finished. It doesnt seem important anymore in comparison to what is happening next year. All I am probably going to remember senior year is that I was getting ready for college. Its making everything so much harder. For example, right now I am supposed to be working on my IB math studies internal assessment that was due today that I havent started. All I can think about is, does this really make any difference in what is going to happen next year? Before, it always mattered, and I even had senioritis back then. Now the senioritis is being fed by the fact that I have this reluctance to do any work because I desperately want to be able to not care. Unfortunately I do have to care, which sucks.
I also (agree with Dan) that I really worry about the fact that summer is so short and I wont be able to rebound quick enough. The prospect of taking a year off to make some money, re coop, and take a breath is very tempting. What is not tempting is the fact that I probably wont remember most of what I learned senior year, when I get to freshman year.
Thanks for the great topic-for-reflection Dan.
PS- My Sweeney Todd audition is tomorrow, send over some good vibes!