Today.
Who would have thought that today I would be posting from the Penn State University library computer lab on my LiveJournal? Honestly, It's amazing to see where life can take you sometimes.
Speaking of where life take you, I've been on one wild path lately. I'm not longer a prisoner to my past. I do what I want and when I want. I get to choose what I eat for dinner and when I go to bed.
College is sweet.
I was hoping to refrain from talking about him but here it is:
He's awesome and I can't believe that I get to have another chance with him. He's attractive in every possible way, and I can't hold myself back. I can see myself moving forward in life with him by my side (even if it's only as a friend). He's brilliant, smart, witty, funny. He makes me smile and brightens up my day. He's so far away though, and I wish i could have him all to myself. It's really hard to explain. I get tingly in my toes and my belly flip-flops when I think about him. He's has this power over me that I can't seem to break loose from. But I don't mind it because it's the happiest I've been in a while.
I once said, "I love you" to him and I didn't get it back. Boy what that a killer! I'm not sure if I'll say it again anytime soon but I think deep down in my heart, I know that he's really important to me and that he will always have a role in my life. I know I know, I'm too young to think about love. but when something feels so different than anything else you've EVER felt in your ENTIRE life, you can't help but wonder...
I'll be back soon, LiveJournal.
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