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I guess if I am to learn something from all of this... is that never to strain and help someone in their time of need, because they will never remember what you did for them. And that once it's my turn to need help, and I'm falling apart, they won't help at all. And will move on...
So tomorrow I have plans to head out to the bronx and also hit up this bar somewhere on the island that my friends want to go to. I'm still trying to decide how I can contructivly use my break, and go with this chance i have. I really think I want build back up as a student and transfer as far away from my echos of pain. I'm sure I can find a school somewhere on the west coast that has a program something like ccs at stony brook. And maybe I can build up a life and future somewhere out there? Never to come back to bay shore again, and never go to a reunion ever. One can only hope. I may be spending this break out in vegas with my aunt, that seems to be my mom's idea.
I'm still trying to plan a trip to DC, but Christine can't go. But I think Mark and Natalie could go. So that trip should still happen. I really want to spent a day or two in DC... And enjoy the history and science.
So tomorrow I have plans to head out to the bronx and also hit up this bar somewhere on the island that my friends want to go to. I'm still trying to decide how I can contructivly use my break, and go with this chance i have. I really think I want build back up as a student and transfer as far away from my echos of pain. I'm sure I can find a school somewhere on the west coast that has a program something like ccs at stony brook. And maybe I can build up a life and future somewhere out there? Never to come back to bay shore again, and never go to a reunion ever. One can only hope. I may be spending this break out in vegas with my aunt, that seems to be my mom's idea.
I'm still trying to plan a trip to DC, but Christine can't go. But I think Mark and Natalie could go. So that trip should still happen. I really want to spent a day or two in DC... And enjoy the history and science.