It's time for a change.
Today it occurred to me how many minutes of every day that are wasted in my life. I've been terrified of growing old my entire life, and now I finally realized that "I have no concept of time, other than it is flying". Growing old is beginning to look like something inevitable, and I've decided that I'm spending all my precious time just existing. That isn't good enough for me anymore. It's time for a change. I've decided to take an interest in the things I enjoy. I have a lot of time to myself at home.
Today I took a look at Aaron's keyboard. I know where the notes are, but I have no knowledge of anything else to do with reading or playing music! I went online and found a few sites that are free and help a little, but if you know how to read music I would be very appreciative if you could give me a few pointers, or even a few lessons! That would be great.
Anyway, I've also decided to be a little more serious about my writing, and I'm going to really strive to write something new every day and broaden my horizons a little bit more. I want to one day have something published, and now I'm going to push myself to finally do it.
Also, I've been brushing up on my beliefs about the universe we live in, and I've done a bit of research on Chi and Taoism, as well as physics. I'm pretty proud of myself, but I'm no where near being finished. I also plan on brushing up on my history and philosophy. There is a lot of knowledge in the world to be had by anyone, and I really don't understand how Paris Hilton can be more important than the workings of nature.
I also received an email from two of the college's here in Phoenix that want me to attend their schools. I was pretty shocked, and to be honest... I had pretty much given up on ever going back to school, but now I am seriously thinking about taking a few courses. Even if I don't make a career out of anything I've decided that it's time I took a passion for learning up. I spent too many years not caring in school, and I realized the other day that there are so many things that I am ignorant about. I wasted my education, and now I'll have to do it all myself, but done is done.
I never thought I liked anything, but now I realize that it was just a lack of faith in myself and a lack of caring that held me back. These days I don't even feel like the same person. I feel enigmatic. I feel like I have risen to a higher point of understanding. I no longer shun knowledge. I have opened my mind to the possibilities, and for the first time in my life I feel alive. I don't feel like I'm just consuming resources and contributing to the waste products anymore.
Knowledge is not power. I believe that no good can come in using it as such (as history has proven again and again). No one can rightfully claim ownership over knowledge in general (whether it be religion, art, philosophy, etc.) We are all only numbers and equations in the big scheme of things. The entire universe is an ocean of knowledge, and all things are part of one another. To be honest, I'm beginning to believe that the only purpose any thing is on this planet, or in this universe, is to just live and exist. We are interconnected, and we are life. I refuse to spend my whole life serving a God that tells me to worship on my knees. Plants have enough sense to reach for the sun, and I don't understand why people do not.
I am going to live. I am going to create. I am going to feel the whole scale of emotions. I have experienced life, and after that... I don't believe there is any sort of permanent death. I believe we are, and always will be part of the energy flowing through everything, and therefore... who knows? Perhaps I will return to this planet as another person, or as a rock. I do not know, but I do know that either way I will always exist. I am eternal, as is all energy. As is every person, and every creation. Energy cannot be destroyed, only remodeled into something else. Although my body may one day rot I will not be destroyed. I do not know if my conscious mind will live on, or if I will have any idea that I am no longer in a human body, but it doesn't matter. I am at the moment, and I am going to utilize it in every way that I can.
I suggest you all do the same. Life is far too short to worry about all the tedious little things we deal with on a daily basis. After all, we are only part of the big scheme of things.
Wish me luck.
Today I took a look at Aaron's keyboard. I know where the notes are, but I have no knowledge of anything else to do with reading or playing music! I went online and found a few sites that are free and help a little, but if you know how to read music I would be very appreciative if you could give me a few pointers, or even a few lessons! That would be great.
Anyway, I've also decided to be a little more serious about my writing, and I'm going to really strive to write something new every day and broaden my horizons a little bit more. I want to one day have something published, and now I'm going to push myself to finally do it.
Also, I've been brushing up on my beliefs about the universe we live in, and I've done a bit of research on Chi and Taoism, as well as physics. I'm pretty proud of myself, but I'm no where near being finished. I also plan on brushing up on my history and philosophy. There is a lot of knowledge in the world to be had by anyone, and I really don't understand how Paris Hilton can be more important than the workings of nature.
I also received an email from two of the college's here in Phoenix that want me to attend their schools. I was pretty shocked, and to be honest... I had pretty much given up on ever going back to school, but now I am seriously thinking about taking a few courses. Even if I don't make a career out of anything I've decided that it's time I took a passion for learning up. I spent too many years not caring in school, and I realized the other day that there are so many things that I am ignorant about. I wasted my education, and now I'll have to do it all myself, but done is done.
I never thought I liked anything, but now I realize that it was just a lack of faith in myself and a lack of caring that held me back. These days I don't even feel like the same person. I feel enigmatic. I feel like I have risen to a higher point of understanding. I no longer shun knowledge. I have opened my mind to the possibilities, and for the first time in my life I feel alive. I don't feel like I'm just consuming resources and contributing to the waste products anymore.
Knowledge is not power. I believe that no good can come in using it as such (as history has proven again and again). No one can rightfully claim ownership over knowledge in general (whether it be religion, art, philosophy, etc.) We are all only numbers and equations in the big scheme of things. The entire universe is an ocean of knowledge, and all things are part of one another. To be honest, I'm beginning to believe that the only purpose any thing is on this planet, or in this universe, is to just live and exist. We are interconnected, and we are life. I refuse to spend my whole life serving a God that tells me to worship on my knees. Plants have enough sense to reach for the sun, and I don't understand why people do not.
I am going to live. I am going to create. I am going to feel the whole scale of emotions. I have experienced life, and after that... I don't believe there is any sort of permanent death. I believe we are, and always will be part of the energy flowing through everything, and therefore... who knows? Perhaps I will return to this planet as another person, or as a rock. I do not know, but I do know that either way I will always exist. I am eternal, as is all energy. As is every person, and every creation. Energy cannot be destroyed, only remodeled into something else. Although my body may one day rot I will not be destroyed. I do not know if my conscious mind will live on, or if I will have any idea that I am no longer in a human body, but it doesn't matter. I am at the moment, and I am going to utilize it in every way that I can.
I suggest you all do the same. Life is far too short to worry about all the tedious little things we deal with on a daily basis. After all, we are only part of the big scheme of things.
Wish me luck.