I'm a bad g/f
I have this tendency to mess things up when they are good. Andy and I just celebrated our 1 year anniversary on wednesday. We were perfect up until last night. I made an ass of myself. Andy wanted to invite some friends over. I said no problem b/c they are all mutual friends. We had a good time and then it got late and I started to get tired. I started getting upset with Andy and blaming him for things. I know the only reason I did this was b/c I was tired and frustrated b/c there was a girl passed out on my bathroom floor and I was not getting any attention from Andy. I am a selfish girlfriend. I feel horrible today. It is the one time since moving to Tampa that he has friends over and I ruined it. I hate it when we argue. It always makes me feel weird and like there is something wrong with our relationship. I always do this to him though and I'm ashamed of myself. I feel like I pick arguments even when they don't mean anything to me. I need to stop doing this b/c Andy means the world to me and I feel like when I do this he will push me away. I guess I'm just psycho.