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Why is it that humans are not supposed to be happy? I have talked to all of my really close friends and discovered that each and every single one of us is miserable. It seems to be all the same problems among us but somehow we can't help each other out. I have been plagued with this feeling for a long time. Instead of enjoying each day I see it as 'what is the purpose of each day?' Everything seems to be falling apart or I am losing connection.
I hate my school work. I have so much I have to read and complete and study for. I have too many event I have to attend. School totally blows. I hate ROTC right now. I have my physical fitness test this week and I'm going crazy. I really shouldn't be. It is just like any other day a PT I just know how much this one matters. On top of that stress I am now safety officer for the wing. It really isn't that special and I don't really have too many responsibilities but I have to brief the entire wing every time we meet. I'm not excited about this but there is nothing I can do about it. At least it is only for a month. Sometimes I seriously consider just going in as Enlisted. It is difficult now but I know in the end everything will pay off it just seems like it will never end.
I miss Orlando. I have so many friends that I haven't seen in a while. I want to work a Disney sometime soon. For some reason I always have a good time there. It doesn't matter if I'm working, at the parks, or in the area I seem to be happier. Most people who I work with hate their job but I love them and my job so I guess I'm weird. I work at Busch Gardens right now but I haven't really worked yet. I have been to some classes but I have not had a day in my actually department. My first real day is Wednesday so hopefully I will like it as much as I love Disney.
Another note about Orlando; my family sucks. They have caused me nothing but tears and stress over the past week. On Tuesday I went to see my parents and while I was visiting their car was broken into and my purse was stolen. I have this terrible guilt complex and I feel like this is all my fault. If I didn't leave my purse in there their car would have never been broken into. I had to replace my glasses which cost close to $300. My social security card was stolen and my mother had to chew my ass out about that. On Friday I found out that my uncle is living with my parents now. My mom and dad are fighting a lot right now about it and it is really hurting them. They were suppose to go to Georgia this weekend but they are not going because they are fighting too much. I told them that I don't feel comfortable with my uncle being there so I won't be coming home for a while. When I told my dad this he didn't seem to care. It was totally out of character for my dad. I think that he was just trying to please everyone but it really hurt me. At least my brother is coming this weekend and we are going to do all kinds of cool things.
I have lots of studying to do now so I think I'm going to end it here. Peace out!
I hate my school work. I have so much I have to read and complete and study for. I have too many event I have to attend. School totally blows. I hate ROTC right now. I have my physical fitness test this week and I'm going crazy. I really shouldn't be. It is just like any other day a PT I just know how much this one matters. On top of that stress I am now safety officer for the wing. It really isn't that special and I don't really have too many responsibilities but I have to brief the entire wing every time we meet. I'm not excited about this but there is nothing I can do about it. At least it is only for a month. Sometimes I seriously consider just going in as Enlisted. It is difficult now but I know in the end everything will pay off it just seems like it will never end.
I miss Orlando. I have so many friends that I haven't seen in a while. I want to work a Disney sometime soon. For some reason I always have a good time there. It doesn't matter if I'm working, at the parks, or in the area I seem to be happier. Most people who I work with hate their job but I love them and my job so I guess I'm weird. I work at Busch Gardens right now but I haven't really worked yet. I have been to some classes but I have not had a day in my actually department. My first real day is Wednesday so hopefully I will like it as much as I love Disney.
Another note about Orlando; my family sucks. They have caused me nothing but tears and stress over the past week. On Tuesday I went to see my parents and while I was visiting their car was broken into and my purse was stolen. I have this terrible guilt complex and I feel like this is all my fault. If I didn't leave my purse in there their car would have never been broken into. I had to replace my glasses which cost close to $300. My social security card was stolen and my mother had to chew my ass out about that. On Friday I found out that my uncle is living with my parents now. My mom and dad are fighting a lot right now about it and it is really hurting them. They were suppose to go to Georgia this weekend but they are not going because they are fighting too much. I told them that I don't feel comfortable with my uncle being there so I won't be coming home for a while. When I told my dad this he didn't seem to care. It was totally out of character for my dad. I think that he was just trying to please everyone but it really hurt me. At least my brother is coming this weekend and we are going to do all kinds of cool things.
I have lots of studying to do now so I think I'm going to end it here. Peace out!