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I feel as though I haven't written on here in awhile, but now, what feels like years after i sort of stopped writing on here, I feel the urge to purge myself of the thoughts churning around in my being.
For those of you that don't know, I'm really busy. ahahahaha, busy doing art! and going out, i guess.
I've taken up smoking again, since i returned for this semester, and as vigilant as i was at the beginning, excited abot quitting for the summer, and then i came back and everyone smokes at CCA and i couldn't fight it,
it just feels sometimes like it rules me more than i ever would have expected.
Also, even though painting is a huge part of my life i had gone against convention, and decided to apply for the individualized major program. this is an honors program and I'm trying to register for it, and as much as part of me is screaming not to take 18 units next term, i feel as though i should, and I don't really know. This term, unlike last term, i'm spending a bit more time going out and doing social things than usual, and as much fun as i've been having, i feel like i haven't spent enough time working on my own creative vision, and defining the direction my art is taking. If I get approved for this individualized major, then I am basically triple-majoring in Fashion design, textiles and painting. when I'm a senior, i'm expected to produce senior level work as if i were single majoring, complete with either a single united body of work, or three seperate works. I'm interested in a united body of textiles and fashion, in the form of wearable art, as well as the furthering of my own abstract paintings. I love abstract painting, and now that i've found an artist who has combined the work of these three areas and more, Alexandra Exter, a Russian abstract expressionist, that couples with my determination to do what i love, above all else.
I don't worry about the future, in terms of school, but i do sometimes question my single-mindedness, and the little voice in my head says, " what about love?"
and i don;t have an answer other than, " if its meant to be, it will happen."
i just wish i could stop smoking....
For those of you that don't know, I'm really busy. ahahahaha, busy doing art! and going out, i guess.
I've taken up smoking again, since i returned for this semester, and as vigilant as i was at the beginning, excited abot quitting for the summer, and then i came back and everyone smokes at CCA and i couldn't fight it,
it just feels sometimes like it rules me more than i ever would have expected.
Also, even though painting is a huge part of my life i had gone against convention, and decided to apply for the individualized major program. this is an honors program and I'm trying to register for it, and as much as part of me is screaming not to take 18 units next term, i feel as though i should, and I don't really know. This term, unlike last term, i'm spending a bit more time going out and doing social things than usual, and as much fun as i've been having, i feel like i haven't spent enough time working on my own creative vision, and defining the direction my art is taking. If I get approved for this individualized major, then I am basically triple-majoring in Fashion design, textiles and painting. when I'm a senior, i'm expected to produce senior level work as if i were single majoring, complete with either a single united body of work, or three seperate works. I'm interested in a united body of textiles and fashion, in the form of wearable art, as well as the furthering of my own abstract paintings. I love abstract painting, and now that i've found an artist who has combined the work of these three areas and more, Alexandra Exter, a Russian abstract expressionist, that couples with my determination to do what i love, above all else.
I don't worry about the future, in terms of school, but i do sometimes question my single-mindedness, and the little voice in my head says, " what about love?"
and i don;t have an answer other than, " if its meant to be, it will happen."
i just wish i could stop smoking....