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I'm confused. I'm honeslty just lost. I feel like these past few weeks I've grown distant twords people. But at the same time, I've grown closer to new people. I'm just afriad that I'm seperating myself, even though I don't mean too. I tend to stay in during the week, and no do much over the weekends. I've been spending a lot of money on God knows what and by the time Saturday hits I'm honestly just broke. I know, I should save some money. I should stop going drinking every weekend. But this month has been one of the best. Ever. Seriously. But now I feel like people arn't too happy with me. Or that I'm not doing enough. Or being a good enough friend. I'm bad at that. It's hard for me to balance so many relationships at once. I sometimes don't give my 100% in certain situations. I'm happy. I am. But there's just something holding me back, that just wont let me be happiest. I'm afriad it's guilt. Or just.. the feeling of dissapointment. I hope people arn't dissapointed in me, for whatever it is I may or may not of done. I'm rambling. ... I'll just stop.