Running in Circles
What to say of these past couple of weeks? Well, it's been interesting, to say the least. A motley of experiences would be a good way to sum it up.
Being first on the team last Saturday was weird. I mean, I was so excited that I ran a big PR and made myself eligible to be All-Academic by being in the top 25% and finished ahead of all the Hope runners, but it was a strange experience. The whole race I was certain that I was going to crash and die at any moment (as I have in the past when I started out faster than others), but for some reason I didn't. And our fastest senior, who I beat by almost 30 seconds, has tried since her freshman year to get All-Academic, and this was my first NCAA regional race, so I feel like I took it from her. She deserves it more than I do.
At first I was apprehensive about the votes for captains for next year. The guys team had told me that if I wasn't voted captain, they wouldn't have much respect for the women's team, but I think they've come around, and Carrie, Lauren and I are already planning on working closely together, even if I'm not currently a captain. Next year is going to be a very exciting year.
And I'm starting to get tired of people trying to tell me that I'm so smart and it's so impressive what I've done in chemistry and with research. Well, guess what? I'm not as smart as everyone thinks...I get poor grades on exams, I don't have all the answers, I get things wrong, and I don't know half there is to know about chemistry or other things. I feel like people are trying to hold me up to such a high standard that I can't even attain it, and it's not fair.
On the bright side, Thanksgiving is coming up. It's been so long since I've seen Tiffy...a lot has happened this semester for both of us, and there's a lot of catching up to be done that no amount of talking online or on the phone can make up for. Thanksgiving break also means that I get to see my KAMSC friends. :)
Unfortunately, with Thanksgiving and the craziness of the end of the semester, I won't be able to see Jeff until we get into Christmas break. Four weeks from now. I don't like these times. It's really hard to not be selfish.
Being first on the team last Saturday was weird. I mean, I was so excited that I ran a big PR and made myself eligible to be All-Academic by being in the top 25% and finished ahead of all the Hope runners, but it was a strange experience. The whole race I was certain that I was going to crash and die at any moment (as I have in the past when I started out faster than others), but for some reason I didn't. And our fastest senior, who I beat by almost 30 seconds, has tried since her freshman year to get All-Academic, and this was my first NCAA regional race, so I feel like I took it from her. She deserves it more than I do.
At first I was apprehensive about the votes for captains for next year. The guys team had told me that if I wasn't voted captain, they wouldn't have much respect for the women's team, but I think they've come around, and Carrie, Lauren and I are already planning on working closely together, even if I'm not currently a captain. Next year is going to be a very exciting year.
And I'm starting to get tired of people trying to tell me that I'm so smart and it's so impressive what I've done in chemistry and with research. Well, guess what? I'm not as smart as everyone thinks...I get poor grades on exams, I don't have all the answers, I get things wrong, and I don't know half there is to know about chemistry or other things. I feel like people are trying to hold me up to such a high standard that I can't even attain it, and it's not fair.
On the bright side, Thanksgiving is coming up. It's been so long since I've seen Tiffy...a lot has happened this semester for both of us, and there's a lot of catching up to be done that no amount of talking online or on the phone can make up for. Thanksgiving break also means that I get to see my KAMSC friends. :)
Unfortunately, with Thanksgiving and the craziness of the end of the semester, I won't be able to see Jeff until we get into Christmas break. Four weeks from now. I don't like these times. It's really hard to not be selfish.