night
man.. i haven't updated in forever. and i love how the space bar is jammed b/c my lil sis was eating a popsicle over the keyboard. anyway.. i just got off the phone with matt.. we haven't gotten to talk a whole lot in the past couple days.. and i'm going off to camp this week so no emails, phone calls, letters, nothing. we didn't get to talk much tonight b/c his cell phone was dying and i have so much crap to do before i leave tomorrow.. i miss him so much already i almost started crying before i hung up. i still feel like i'm choking. gosh.. a whole week. what am i gonna do when it's a whole semester.. when i go off to BYU. i don't even want to think about it. i hate how we live kinda far apart already.. i hate how i have to sneak around.. even just to call. but i'd do anything for him.. and i can't let go.
matthew.. i love you.. so much it hurts.
matthew.. i love you.. so much it hurts.